On Vox: Taking a break from studying
My husband and I have our problems but damn I love him.
A lot is going on right now (as always). I messed up my knee pretty bad mountain biking on Sunday. I have been studying and freaking out like crazy over this test. It is my future. If I don't pass, then I am stuck where I am at until the Fall (next year). We close on our house in 2 weeks. DRAMA at work and with friends is pulling me in. yuck.
Everything is spinning around me and I just keep reaching my hand out to slow the momentum or catch something and pull it out of rotation. Instead I knock pieces into more fragments of my life. I am afraid I am going to miss something. What if something disappears before I get to it? Life is really good. I want to hit the pause button; at the same time there is so much to look forward to. I wouldn't mind skipping ahead either. I am 25 and I want to do everything and have no regrets.
Mulligan is lying by my feet and Baby is lying on my notebook. My husband is quietly watching TV in the other room trying not to distract me. God I am so blessed.
I will get back to my yoga when my leg heals. Shhhh I only told a few people that I had another fall on the bike.
Back to work. My test is tomorrow and I need to calm down. I pass, I pass. I fail, I will try again in December. All I can do is my best and the rest is in his hands.
Music "Angry all the time" Tim McGraw
"Laughed until we cried" Jason Aldean
Originally posted on wildhope23.vox.com