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When I was a child everything could be "played" over or just chalked up to "that's grown ups junk" .
Now as a grown up ,I really want to go back ,& work harder ,do those "things I never would do . Get a copy of all those paperbacks I can no longer find but couldn't breathe without. Hanging on to every word doesn't sound quite so bad right about now. I need to move ,move as in just find a piece of anything that recounts anything that was me in that realm of space. Funny ,you always think you can "do it later" or comeback............it's all bullshit . Tomorrow comes but it's to fast to even recognize the flybys.
I really think the only thing thats really real is your thought process, no one can mimic or steal and you and you alone control it . Control... not a word that comes easily, always there's a price, much to high for many ,few and far between for us all .
I think too much ,do even less........but this ache in the soul , it fucking burns.
Now as a grown up ,I really want to go back ,& work harder ,do those "things I never would do . Get a copy of all those paperbacks I can no longer find but couldn't breathe without. Hanging on to every word doesn't sound quite so bad right about now. I need to move ,move as in just find a piece of anything that recounts anything that was me in that realm of space. Funny ,you always think you can "do it later" or comeback............it's all bullshit . Tomorrow comes but it's to fast to even recognize the flybys.
I really think the only thing thats really real is your thought process, no one can mimic or steal and you and you alone control it . Control... not a word that comes easily, always there's a price, much to high for many ,few and far between for us all .
I think too much ,do even less........but this ache in the soul , it fucking burns.