im waiting
hey guys! i hope everyone had fun at their grad nite or grad bash... mine was fun... the best part was taking back sunday! although at the end they sang the song that david used to sing to me really loud in his car... got a little teary eyed but what can ya do except juss try to smile and remember it as good times...
i've been pretty good the past 4 days but today was pretty bad i dunno why all of the sudden but i started thinkin about everything, like who is gonna talk canadian to me like david always did and how i used to rub my face on his chin cuz i liked the way his chin hair felt on my skin, and how my hair always found its way to his mouth when we tried to kiss, and the pouty thing we did with our lips when we wanted a kiss...
i wish i could find someone else already b/c otherwise im juss gonna think about david and be miserable... i went to a fletcher party on saturday and like this guy was all over me and tryin to hook up with me and i didnt like it... i wanted david to be there and protect me like he always did when guys would try to hit on me at parties... im scared that i wont even be able to find someone else cuz ill always think of david and compare them with david... im gonna have to start from the beginning again and im gonna be shy and nervous all the time like i used to be... this is so hard... whoever has been through this and is over it, i friggin admire you ... help me!!!
i guess ill go now.. hope everyone has a good week!
Shanah Lee
i've been pretty good the past 4 days but today was pretty bad i dunno why all of the sudden but i started thinkin about everything, like who is gonna talk canadian to me like david always did and how i used to rub my face on his chin cuz i liked the way his chin hair felt on my skin, and how my hair always found its way to his mouth when we tried to kiss, and the pouty thing we did with our lips when we wanted a kiss...
i wish i could find someone else already b/c otherwise im juss gonna think about david and be miserable... i went to a fletcher party on saturday and like this guy was all over me and tryin to hook up with me and i didnt like it... i wanted david to be there and protect me like he always did when guys would try to hit on me at parties... im scared that i wont even be able to find someone else cuz ill always think of david and compare them with david... im gonna have to start from the beginning again and im gonna be shy and nervous all the time like i used to be... this is so hard... whoever has been through this and is over it, i friggin admire you ... help me!!!
i guess ill go now.. hope everyone has a good week!
Shanah Lee