all good things come to an end...:0(
I guess what people say is right,,, all good things do come to an end! but i wish it didnt have to end this soon!
Let me start from Last Sunday, the beginning of the worse week ever! i asked David to come over so we can talk because i felt that he wasnt into it anymore and maybe he was juss to afraid to break it off, ya kno? well we talked i told him how i felt and how he made me feel and vice versa...so we decided to take a break...(big mistake in my opinion) well every night he called me to see how i was and tell me he loved me... it killed me, i was crying by the end of every phone call... it hurts so bad..
Thursday was a better day, i had my dance recital, which was kick ass and i killed it!! then my friggin beautiful friend holly came to visit and u can never not be happy when she is around cuz she always has ya smilin! then i went to dinner with my friend isaac and amanda and tommy came along! it was nice we had some good laughs... then i went to the store to get some things i needed to decorate davids car for his b-day! yea i kno why would i do that when he could care less... cuzi love him and i want him to have a fantastic birthday! well then at 10 amanda and i drove over to david's house and put balloons all over david's car and streamers and banners and wrote on the windows!!! it was so awesome... i took pics!!! i left a heart felt card on his window in hopes it might make him realize he wants to be with me... yea that didnt work out... juss flew right over!!!
Friday... David's 18th birthday and our 11 months,,, i got a phone call from him early in the morning sayin hey thanks for doin that... NOT A WORD ABOUT 11 MONTHS... ouch! then later i went straight home from school and waited in case David decided to show up.. i kno rediculous but i really thought he might actually come...nah! so amanda came and picked me up and we went to olive garden, me her angelina and michelle! friggin awesome... cept for the tears toward the end but they girls made that better by giving the hot waiter jason my phone number! lol YESSS!!! Then it was party time... David liked his floor seats for green day, iwas glad... then we all got crunk,,, david broke up with me... then it juss went down hill,,, while saying goodbye to each other, we kissed... it broke me,, you kno in my mind i was thinking,,, this is the last time ill ever feel his lips on mine,,
the next night, we partied again, it was hard at first cuz everyone went to dinner and they were all with there bf or gf and im juss sittin there thinkin ( i was never the one tagging along i always had someone, i didnt like that)party came and i got crunk, it was fun our 5-some on the couch with amanda on the bottom then tommy, dane, me and joe!! hell yea! then i cried more and then spent some time in the bathroom(wink wink)
im not okay and i still dont understand any of this and why it ended, but whatever.. its out of my control... i kno the sayin is "if you love something let it go and if it comes back then its meant to be" but how long do i have to wait and what if it doesnt come back? ill never be the same person... i can't be... part of me is gone
sorry this is long ill stop and juss write more later.... i needed to get this out!
i love everyone who has helped me and been there for me, i think id go crazy if it werent for you guys!
Let me start from Last Sunday, the beginning of the worse week ever! i asked David to come over so we can talk because i felt that he wasnt into it anymore and maybe he was juss to afraid to break it off, ya kno? well we talked i told him how i felt and how he made me feel and vice versa...so we decided to take a break...(big mistake in my opinion) well every night he called me to see how i was and tell me he loved me... it killed me, i was crying by the end of every phone call... it hurts so bad..
Thursday was a better day, i had my dance recital, which was kick ass and i killed it!! then my friggin beautiful friend holly came to visit and u can never not be happy when she is around cuz she always has ya smilin! then i went to dinner with my friend isaac and amanda and tommy came along! it was nice we had some good laughs... then i went to the store to get some things i needed to decorate davids car for his b-day! yea i kno why would i do that when he could care less... cuzi love him and i want him to have a fantastic birthday! well then at 10 amanda and i drove over to david's house and put balloons all over david's car and streamers and banners and wrote on the windows!!! it was so awesome... i took pics!!! i left a heart felt card on his window in hopes it might make him realize he wants to be with me... yea that didnt work out... juss flew right over!!!
Friday... David's 18th birthday and our 11 months,,, i got a phone call from him early in the morning sayin hey thanks for doin that... NOT A WORD ABOUT 11 MONTHS... ouch! then later i went straight home from school and waited in case David decided to show up.. i kno rediculous but i really thought he might actually come...nah! so amanda came and picked me up and we went to olive garden, me her angelina and michelle! friggin awesome... cept for the tears toward the end but they girls made that better by giving the hot waiter jason my phone number! lol YESSS!!! Then it was party time... David liked his floor seats for green day, iwas glad... then we all got crunk,,, david broke up with me... then it juss went down hill,,, while saying goodbye to each other, we kissed... it broke me,, you kno in my mind i was thinking,,, this is the last time ill ever feel his lips on mine,,
the next night, we partied again, it was hard at first cuz everyone went to dinner and they were all with there bf or gf and im juss sittin there thinkin ( i was never the one tagging along i always had someone, i didnt like that)party came and i got crunk, it was fun our 5-some on the couch with amanda on the bottom then tommy, dane, me and joe!! hell yea! then i cried more and then spent some time in the bathroom(wink wink)
im not okay and i still dont understand any of this and why it ended, but whatever.. its out of my control... i kno the sayin is "if you love something let it go and if it comes back then its meant to be" but how long do i have to wait and what if it doesnt come back? ill never be the same person... i can't be... part of me is gone
sorry this is long ill stop and juss write more later.... i needed to get this out!
i love everyone who has helped me and been there for me, i think id go crazy if it werent for you guys!