Frustraded
I feel frustraded about 2 things in my life at the moment. Actually, there are a lot more, but let's stick with school.
The number one frustration in school, which happens to be my first class, is math. I received my last test and didn't pass. We only have one more test left and I MUST pass this time, with a GOOD grade so i can pass this class with a C. Today when I got to class the girls were having this conversation on how bad and rude this professor is. One of the girls (who also failed) asked him for help or for something that she could do to make her grade better, he was just rude and arrogant saying he couldnt do anything for her and if she had anything against that she should go talk to his boss. Another girl though, said that she asked him on Monday and was able to withdraw the class yesterday Tuesday. So, I talked to my friend Luciana and we both decided to talk to him and try to withdraw too, thinking that would be the best thing we could do.
We were nervous and didn't know what to say, I started, but as I expected he was rude and said "Didnt you read my sillabus? I clearly mentioned that the only way to withdraw my class after the second test was if we were sick and had a document proving it, YOU CANT JUST WITHDRAW BECAUSE YOU ARENT DOING GOOD IN IT". BULLSHIT... the girl who we talked to was NOT sick, had NO document..she just said she wasnt doing well and couldnt afford getting her GPA lowered... which was the same thing Luciana and I told him.... It is just frustrating, I guess I just have to deal with it, life was never fair and it will never be. I cant expect him to do something for me when i dont even talk to him .... I would feel better if I knew i could do better on my next test, but things are just getting worse, not giving me hopes for a better grade..
Another frustrating thing is my English class. I do love the class, I love the professor, I met some really cool people in that class, but the ESSAYS! I just cant... I dont know how to. My essays are way too simple, I cant develop my ideas and have a lot of trouble with finding the right words...or just finding WORDS! The restrictions really block me too, I try so hard but in the end i just lose the patience. I know my problem is with reading mainly, because if I read more I would be able to write better. The thing is, I am LAZY... lazy to go to the library and look for a nice book to read...But that is not the point anyway... A.D.D. is another problem right there.
I feel frustrated but i am still happy. I am thinking more positively now and trying to not overthink about the frustrating bitter things.. I think its the weather or something, how can someone be bitter when it's so beautiful outside?
Let's move on to the non-frustrating part of the day. History class! Believe it or not History was not frustrating. We got our tests back, the original grade wasn't too good, but with the extra credits i was able to get an A! She usually gives 5 points for the extra-credit essays, but this time she said that the "ones that were better" got more than 5...I was more than happy i got 10 extra points on that essay! At least someone appreciated my crappy writing skills =D!
Denise and I were walking around the cafeteria but the food was just not appetizing, we decided to go on our little trip called "Exploring Cranford" again. We got a ride with our friend David to the main street and decided to eat at this nice little restaurant by the one we ate last time. The food was pretty good, but way too expensive. It was ok though, we got to walk back to school, it was nice..Cranford is beautiful and the weather was good.
I guess those are all of the frustrations and non-frustrations of the day so far, hopefully some more non-frustrations will happen, a good one would be getting extremely inspired to be able to think about complex stuff in the stupid book we read and write a decent essay for English.
*sighs*