you know what urks me the most
is the fact that he said all that shit and then just walks away. Men and their words. Can I ever trust a man to tell me the truth? I was completely honest with him. I'm not going to say I love you to someone unless I am absolutely sure I do and I knew that I wasn't. I was in like but not love. I think I had just missed touching & being touched by another person. The anticipation of a first kiss. The weight of his arms around me pulling me in. His breath against my skin. AHHH how I miss that! Honestly before this past May I hadn't been touched by a man since - MY GOD I CAN'T REMEMBER!!! I wanted to feel lust, to feel passion again. I honestly thought I was numb. And I guess I am since really he only stirred me a little. It's best that it didn't go further than it did because honestly he never could stir me that way. He did have a sexy smile though! But I need more than that! I need sexy and intelligence. I need a man who makes my knees weak and my mind wonder. Someone who can spark both my body and soul. I'm not sure if this guy exists. Maybe not this day in time. Dammit was I born too late? Do men actually think deep thoughts anymore or is it all football and gangster rap? I weep for the world of men