I got what I wanted? Wah???
I have had to struggle a lot, but what is weird is that if I didn't have to struggle I probably wouldn't want to do it. Like the fight is what makes me want to do it, what makes me WANT it. Nothing else. The things I want are always huge, usually out of my range. So that when I get the one thing, the one huge thing, it's kind of difficult to grasp. Very difficult. I do think I am worth it. I do think I am proud of myself. But mostly, I think: WTF, Mate???? I think yesterday was the best day ever. Only happiness to come! I'm starting to think that I might just start getting exactly what I want. I've got some luck in me after all!