The Time Has Come
This piece was written the morning of Thursday, December 22, 2005.
The Die is Cast.
By now I am in the thick of things.
The evening after speaking with my brother about the family, I spoke to m’Lady
wife. I told her all about what was going on in Vegas, as well as my concerns.
I then asked her for permission to go to Vegas over the Christmas weekend and
try to set things to rights. I told her that if she wished for me to be at her
side, that I would do so gladly, with no heaviness or resentment in my heart.
She bade me to go.
I called the older of my younger sister’s and made arrangements. I fly out at
high noon on Christmas-eve-eve. I return on the day after Christmas.
My arrival is meant to be a surprise. I do not want my mother, uncle, or sister
to have time to prepare. My mother may already know; I inherited some of my
gifts from her. I have guarded my thoughts as best I can. I have also
obfuscated my intent by sending a present to the family from m’Lady and I. I
don’t know if the S and N have given anything away, but I don’t think they have.
They’ve lived with my mother as well.
Arrangements have been made that m’Lady wife will be well taken care of while
I’m gone. I am saddened that I will not be able to spend the holiday with
m’Lady and her family, but I feel that I must do this.
No battle plan survives first contact. I do not have plans; I have objectives.
My primary objective to get the family to start speaking to each other once
more. I believe that most, if not all, of the current troubles stems from the
fact that people have not been open and honest about what has been going on. As
such, things fester, resentment grows; and no one wants to own up for fear of
shame and having to face their own wounded pride.
I believe that my mother must get counseling for her addiction. I also believe
that my mother and stepfather must go through some marriage counseling to start
to mend the rift and rebuild the trust between them. I also think it couldn’t
hurt if they handled their finances together instead of switching off every few
years.
I believe that my youngest sister must come to see the error of her ways. I
will try talking to her as an equal, as well as tell her that there are others
she can speak with that have been down a similar, dark road. In this instance,
it may be beneficial for uncle Kenneth to be there, to serve as a cautionary
example to her.
I will make it clear to uncle Kenneth that it is not acceptable for him to play
my family. And should he try to do anything truly desperate and stupid, he will
be stopped.
I am an unquenchable fire,
The center of all energy,
The stout heroic heart.
I am truth and light,
I hold power and glory in my sway.
My presence
Disperses dark clouds.
I have been chosen
To tame the Fates.
The Die is Cast.
By now I am in the thick of things.
The evening after speaking with my brother about the family, I spoke to m’Lady
wife. I told her all about what was going on in Vegas, as well as my concerns.
I then asked her for permission to go to Vegas over the Christmas weekend and
try to set things to rights. I told her that if she wished for me to be at her
side, that I would do so gladly, with no heaviness or resentment in my heart.
She bade me to go.
I called the older of my younger sister’s and made arrangements. I fly out at
high noon on Christmas-eve-eve. I return on the day after Christmas.
My arrival is meant to be a surprise. I do not want my mother, uncle, or sister
to have time to prepare. My mother may already know; I inherited some of my
gifts from her. I have guarded my thoughts as best I can. I have also
obfuscated my intent by sending a present to the family from m’Lady and I. I
don’t know if the S and N have given anything away, but I don’t think they have.
They’ve lived with my mother as well.
Arrangements have been made that m’Lady wife will be well taken care of while
I’m gone. I am saddened that I will not be able to spend the holiday with
m’Lady and her family, but I feel that I must do this.
No battle plan survives first contact. I do not have plans; I have objectives.
My primary objective to get the family to start speaking to each other once
more. I believe that most, if not all, of the current troubles stems from the
fact that people have not been open and honest about what has been going on. As
such, things fester, resentment grows; and no one wants to own up for fear of
shame and having to face their own wounded pride.
I believe that my mother must get counseling for her addiction. I also believe
that my mother and stepfather must go through some marriage counseling to start
to mend the rift and rebuild the trust between them. I also think it couldn’t
hurt if they handled their finances together instead of switching off every few
years.
I believe that my youngest sister must come to see the error of her ways. I
will try talking to her as an equal, as well as tell her that there are others
she can speak with that have been down a similar, dark road. In this instance,
it may be beneficial for uncle Kenneth to be there, to serve as a cautionary
example to her.
I will make it clear to uncle Kenneth that it is not acceptable for him to play
my family. And should he try to do anything truly desperate and stupid, he will
be stopped.
I am an unquenchable fire,
The center of all energy,
The stout heroic heart.
I am truth and light,
I hold power and glory in my sway.
My presence
Disperses dark clouds.
I have been chosen
To tame the Fates.