Because I have to.
Hungry - nope. just ate.
Angry - not like Saturday.
Lonely - yeah. but I need to get shit done.
Tired - emotionally? maybe?
Weight - 125 (max comfortable weight)
I've come to the conclusion that I need to start blogging on a daily basis again. I need to keep track of how I'm feeling so that I can attempt to plan my life around my illness (because the whole bipolar ii/anxiety thing IS an illness, shut up brain) and become a functional adult.
Part of what's been getting me down lately is my inability to afford nice things/go cool places/exist outside of these four walls. I need a real people job in order to earn the money to do these things, but I can't get one unless I can remain on a relatively even keel. I can't handle stress at all right now, and that makes it a bit hard to interact with people in a professional setting. Hell, it makes it hard to get out of bed in the morning. But I have to try. I'm 26 and I need to start getting my shit together.
Today I need to:
1. print out new schedules - still waiting on confirmation from the contortion yoga instructor re:June classes
2. edit my father's labs one down, nine to go.
3. call Carmen (don't want to, but should)
4. pick up bedroom
At the end of the day, I'll come back and cross off all the things that I accomplished. Here's hoping this works!
Angry - not like Saturday.
Lonely - yeah. but I need to get shit done.
Tired - emotionally? maybe?
Weight - 125 (max comfortable weight)
I've come to the conclusion that I need to start blogging on a daily basis again. I need to keep track of how I'm feeling so that I can attempt to plan my life around my illness (because the whole bipolar ii/anxiety thing IS an illness, shut up brain) and become a functional adult.
Part of what's been getting me down lately is my inability to afford nice things/go cool places/exist outside of these four walls. I need a real people job in order to earn the money to do these things, but I can't get one unless I can remain on a relatively even keel. I can't handle stress at all right now, and that makes it a bit hard to interact with people in a professional setting. Hell, it makes it hard to get out of bed in the morning. But I have to try. I'm 26 and I need to start getting my shit together.
Today I need to:
1. print out new schedules - still waiting on confirmation from the contortion yoga instructor re:June classes
2. edit my father's labs one down, nine to go.
3. call Carmen (don't want to, but should)
4. pick up bedroom
At the end of the day, I'll come back and cross off all the things that I accomplished. Here's hoping this works!