Maybe just a LITTLE sunshine...
Y'know, I keep meaning to come back here... regularly. Eventually things may settle enough for me to do so. Or I'll move to Ottawa where I'll be so damned bored that I'll be here constantly.
Speaking of which... I'm in Ottawa for the next couple of days to job hunt and DJ. This weekend is a fun masquerade and bazaar put on by the Ottawa Goth Society. I'm looking forward to spinning Friday night. Ottawa does have a fairly good crowd who do like to dance and who do dress damned well. I'll have to step up my game so's not to look bland.
In thinking, which I do all the time 'cause my brain NEVER. SHUTS. UP. I believe that there are five main areas of one's life [among middle class Canadians, anyways... and while I do not currently really belong to the middle class it is where I was raised and with whom I identify so...] that are of primary focus and have the potential to cause the highest stress: personal health, employment, living situation, family and primary relationship.
I've gotten a place in Toronto that I can call my own, though I'll be with a room mate for a year. He's a great guy, which is a good thing, so no issues there. The place is a titch small but still doable. Near the subway, utilities included... space for my stuff and cats... so if I DON'T end up with a job in Ottawa and actually find employment in Toronto, this takes care of the living situation heading. That stress is done.
My family has been going through a lot lately. My folks are old and with age comes issues. My mom is not in the best of health though of late she's been in good shape *nod* It's her third round with breast cancer and it's gotten into her brain so... but my family are down to earth, farm type folk and this is being handled. She has improved of late and things are going much better than they were before the holidays. So the family stress is way down [helped, in part, by alcohol, no doubt *heh*].
My personal health is never an issue. I just don't stress it. Though I'm tired of arguing with vegans and vegetarians... why do I need to defend my decision to eat meat? This is why us right wing, imperialistic bastards don't like arguing with the left types... it gets all loud and emotional and irrational. True, that does happen on both sides but methinks the left just has greater skill in the emotional side of arguing. So personal health is no stress.
That leaves employment. I'm getting so very tired of job hunting. I need a job not just for the income and the future but to feel that I'm contributing, that I'm doing something. I looked at volunteering and may yet, but the job hunt takes up so much of my time I don't have a lot left for other things... beyond the odd DJ gig.
And the fifth focus... well, we'll just leave that one alone, shall we? It is what it is.
2012 has some promise... we'll have to see where it goes from here.
But Ottawa? Really? Back here? *sigh* Yeah, yeah, it's an okay city... but it's not MY kind of city. And the women are so damned conservative that I don't even need to open my mouth for them to know I'm strange... *sigh*
Well... we'll see.
Speaking of which... I'm in Ottawa for the next couple of days to job hunt and DJ. This weekend is a fun masquerade and bazaar put on by the Ottawa Goth Society. I'm looking forward to spinning Friday night. Ottawa does have a fairly good crowd who do like to dance and who do dress damned well. I'll have to step up my game so's not to look bland.
In thinking, which I do all the time 'cause my brain NEVER. SHUTS. UP. I believe that there are five main areas of one's life [among middle class Canadians, anyways... and while I do not currently really belong to the middle class it is where I was raised and with whom I identify so...] that are of primary focus and have the potential to cause the highest stress: personal health, employment, living situation, family and primary relationship.
I've gotten a place in Toronto that I can call my own, though I'll be with a room mate for a year. He's a great guy, which is a good thing, so no issues there. The place is a titch small but still doable. Near the subway, utilities included... space for my stuff and cats... so if I DON'T end up with a job in Ottawa and actually find employment in Toronto, this takes care of the living situation heading. That stress is done.
My family has been going through a lot lately. My folks are old and with age comes issues. My mom is not in the best of health though of late she's been in good shape *nod* It's her third round with breast cancer and it's gotten into her brain so... but my family are down to earth, farm type folk and this is being handled. She has improved of late and things are going much better than they were before the holidays. So the family stress is way down [helped, in part, by alcohol, no doubt *heh*].
My personal health is never an issue. I just don't stress it. Though I'm tired of arguing with vegans and vegetarians... why do I need to defend my decision to eat meat? This is why us right wing, imperialistic bastards don't like arguing with the left types... it gets all loud and emotional and irrational. True, that does happen on both sides but methinks the left just has greater skill in the emotional side of arguing. So personal health is no stress.
That leaves employment. I'm getting so very tired of job hunting. I need a job not just for the income and the future but to feel that I'm contributing, that I'm doing something. I looked at volunteering and may yet, but the job hunt takes up so much of my time I don't have a lot left for other things... beyond the odd DJ gig.
And the fifth focus... well, we'll just leave that one alone, shall we? It is what it is.
2012 has some promise... we'll have to see where it goes from here.
But Ottawa? Really? Back here? *sigh* Yeah, yeah, it's an okay city... but it's not MY kind of city. And the women are so damned conservative that I don't even need to open my mouth for them to know I'm strange... *sigh*
Well... we'll see.