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well for the past week or so, my mood has been going steadily down hill. ive been sleeping 12 to 14 hours a day. all i want to is stay in bed under the covers. i dont want to go out and work is beginning to be the last thing on my mind. the urge to si is getting stronger by the minute, i dont want to hold out any longer. just to give in would feel...im not sure how it would feel at this point.my thinking is being seized by the thoughts of si, i want them to stop at the same time i don't. si is comforting to me and im beginning to feel lost, my mind is going away slowly...