oh my goodness. i'm not entirely sure where to start, if i'm being honest. i'm currently a mess of tears and feelings and it's just insane. i feel as though i need to go sit alone for a while, somewhere with no distractions, and just think about everything. this has made me start questioning a lot of things, and i'm not sure if this is going to be entirely coherent. i'm managing to keep my patented keysmash out of it, though. (i hope.)
i don't think a fic has hit me like this in a very long time, and because liam/zayn is my otp, this is just brilliant to read, really.
i feel like my heart's been broken again and again, because this is one of those stories in which there's more breaking than there is building, and i'm not going to lie, although they're the most painful kind, they're personally my favourite, because of the pure and simple raw emotion that's there. i adored the evolution of liamandzayn and the way you could see them changing as they grew and the way that zaynandharry and louisandharry came into it.
something about harry is really intriguing to me, because you can tell that he's just so broken and there's those rough, jagged edges around him, and i do want to know about him and louis because their relationship would just be so fascinating (and most likely painful, if i'm being honest, but that's the best part). harry, to me, is just this kind of wildcard that i don't know how he's going to react, how you're going to use him, and i'm scared that he's going to break liam, more and more. and i want to know how zayn and harry came to be, because i feel like zayn just had so much that he wanted to prove, so much to live up to, and so much of it for liam.
and god, liam. you've got liam who's just so pure and wonderful, and he's this aspect of zayn's life that's been untainted, in a way, something that's completely zayn's, and over the course of the story you've just got liam who knows there's something wrong, something that's happening to zayn, but he loves him. he just keeps loving him, quietly and so strong, he's so strong. and it's so easy to side with liam in this, because he keeps loving zayn but he keeps getting hit, again and again, with all the little things and the not-so-small ones. liam's the type that's trying so hard not to break anything, to fix the cracks and stop the hurt, but that's centric to zayn in this. and the thing is that zayn can obviously tell that he's doing this, he knows he's hurting him, but there's something that makes him unable to stop. and i just want them to be together, but not in this way, because they're so evidently unhappy.
it's the wrong sort of love and it's awful.
i just wanted to say, your little siken snippets were absolutely wonderful, and i think that was what kind of pushed me over the edge into tears. i've heard siken very aptly described as 'the fandom whisperer' and i felt like this really spoke to me - although maybe that's because i have such a personal reaction to his words myself. the way you used them just fit all together so, so well. and 'the repeated image of the lover destroyed' has to be one of my favourite lines from him, because it's just so incredibly emotive that you can't help feeling so strongly.
and your writing. god, your writing. you've got this style that's like nothing i've ever seen before. it's just unique and beautiful and brilliant in every single way. the way you interspersed the different parts with the little sentences that weren't the story blew me away. your prose is so lovely, because it just reads really well and is incredibly evocative. it's just these little details that you put in that really made the story for me. and even the ones within the plot - 'there are 27 bones in a human hand; an eighth of all the bones in a body. liam counts to 27 every night before he sleeps, zayn’s hand in his.' it hurts, in the best way.
i can't wait for the next parts of your series. thank you so much for sharing your wonderful words. <3
I'M SORRY BUT I KIND OF SQUEALED WHEN I SAW THAT YOU COMMENTED BECAUSE I'M A HUGE FAN OF YOUR WORKS. I'VE LITERALLY READ LIKE ALL OF THEM I THINK (or at least the liam/zayn ones for sure) and so for you to have enjoyed this was such a big deal to me. thank you, ari! (i know your name because i STALK YOUR COMMENTS DON'T JUDGE ME)
as for the sequences, it definitely starts at the point of break down because i'm a firm believer that things have to get worse before they get better and in order to build, things must be torn down. the dynamics between different couples will most definitely be explored as we move through each perspective and the dynamics will be different as each character SEES each dynamic differently.
harry is definitely a sly minx and i'm glad that most seem to like him rather than dislike him because part of harry's dynamic is that he is EXTREMELY appealing no matter what he does and him and liam are definitely foils for each other.
liam and zayn are a very subtle type of couple and they've got some serious communication issues. and zayn is feeling a TREMONDOUS amount of pressure and insecurities in order to try to keep up with liam so liam's perfection actually turns out to be kind of a flaw.
and siken the fandom whisperer, D E F I N I T E L Y. and i'm SO GLAD that you enjoyed the interludes that kind of lead away from the main storytelling because that's always been my writing style and i wasn't sure how people would respond to it! thank you for commenting and reading! you're a darling <3
i don't think a fic has hit me like this in a very long time, and because liam/zayn is my otp, this is just brilliant to read, really.
i feel like my heart's been broken again and again, because this is one of those stories in which there's more breaking than there is building, and i'm not going to lie, although they're the most painful kind, they're personally my favourite, because of the pure and simple raw emotion that's there. i adored the evolution of liamandzayn and the way you could see them changing as they grew and the way that zaynandharry and louisandharry came into it.
something about harry is really intriguing to me, because you can tell that he's just so broken and there's those rough, jagged edges around him, and i do want to know about him and louis because their relationship would just be so fascinating (and most likely painful, if i'm being honest, but that's the best part). harry, to me, is just this kind of wildcard that i don't know how he's going to react, how you're going to use him, and i'm scared that he's going to break liam, more and more. and i want to know how zayn and harry came to be, because i feel like zayn just had so much that he wanted to prove, so much to live up to, and so much of it for liam.
and god, liam. you've got liam who's just so pure and wonderful, and he's this aspect of zayn's life that's been untainted, in a way, something that's completely zayn's, and over the course of the story you've just got liam who knows there's something wrong, something that's happening to zayn, but he loves him. he just keeps loving him, quietly and so strong, he's so strong. and it's so easy to side with liam in this, because he keeps loving zayn but he keeps getting hit, again and again, with all the little things and the not-so-small ones. liam's the type that's trying so hard not to break anything, to fix the cracks and stop the hurt, but that's centric to zayn in this. and the thing is that zayn can obviously tell that he's doing this, he knows he's hurting him, but there's something that makes him unable to stop. and i just want them to be together, but not in this way, because they're so evidently unhappy.
it's the wrong sort of love and it's awful.
i just wanted to say, your little siken snippets were absolutely wonderful, and i think that was what kind of pushed me over the edge into tears. i've heard siken very aptly described as 'the fandom whisperer' and i felt like this really spoke to me - although maybe that's because i have such a personal reaction to his words myself. the way you used them just fit all together so, so well. and 'the repeated image of the lover destroyed' has to be one of my favourite lines from him, because it's just so incredibly emotive that you can't help feeling so strongly.
and your writing. god, your writing. you've got this style that's like nothing i've ever seen before. it's just unique and beautiful and brilliant in every single way. the way you interspersed the different parts with the little sentences that weren't the story blew me away. your prose is so lovely, because it just reads really well and is incredibly evocative. it's just these little details that you put in that really made the story for me. and even the ones within the plot - 'there are 27 bones in a human hand; an eighth of all the bones in a body. liam counts to 27 every night before he sleeps, zayn’s hand in his.' it hurts, in the best way.
i can't wait for the next parts of your series. thank you so much for sharing your wonderful words. <3
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as for the sequences, it definitely starts at the point of break down because i'm a firm believer that things have to get worse before they get better and in order to build, things must be torn down. the dynamics between different couples will most definitely be explored as we move through each perspective and the dynamics will be different as each character SEES each dynamic differently.
harry is definitely a sly minx and i'm glad that most seem to like him rather than dislike him because part of harry's dynamic is that he is EXTREMELY appealing no matter what he does and him and liam are definitely foils for each other.
liam and zayn are a very subtle type of couple and they've got some serious communication issues. and zayn is feeling a TREMONDOUS amount of pressure and insecurities in order to try to keep up with liam so liam's perfection actually turns out to be kind of a flaw.
and siken the fandom whisperer, D E F I N I T E L Y. and i'm SO GLAD that you enjoyed the interludes that kind of lead away from the main storytelling because that's always been my writing style and i wasn't sure how people would respond to it! thank you for commenting and reading! you're a darling <3
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