i feel....

[wildcrazyfool]

man i just wanna spill out all my feelings to someone....someone that wants to listen to me. i feel like im wasting someones time with my problems...well i wouldn;t say they were problems just...feelings that are all bottled up inside of me. i feel like im a nagging lil whore hahah i know taht sounds werid...but i feel like i bother everyone....god im going out of my mind i guess. i wish i knew why.im so depressed alot lately. i wish i was as pretty as HER. her long blonde hair. her whatever fucking color her eyes are there beautiful without even knowing the color. the way she looks. i keep thinking about u touching her back in day. oh god what am i doing to my self im fucking obsessed with the fact that im sooo jealous over her. Shes just a girl...why cant i get over it. everytime i think about you and her together it drives me insane. sometimes i think u wish i was her. and that every time your with me i think u much rather it be her. ahhhhhhh i need serious help. i need someone to help me. maybe i should go....i think i've done enough damage for one night....i love you all who love me.

wait....theres one more thing. holly i dont know how to say goodbye to someone....this is gonna be so hard to say goodbye to you. i've been thinking about it alot lately. and plus the fact that i have to say goodbye to u earlier.....oh god i better go i love u all....

and franklin im sorry....im fucked up in the head...i hope u dont hate me too much after u read this. i gotta byes