you know sometimes its werid....
it's werid how i can never seem to let things go....i guess people just mean too much to me sometimes...i think about how shes doing all the time. i know she hates me and i dont hate her i just hate the way things turned out its not like i can go back and i know we could never be friends again cuz things just wouldn;t be the same but i dont want any enemies or nothing like that but i do hope everything is good with her...which i know probably is hard to say cuz i use to know her and how she was treated by family and stuff and im not trying to say i know what shes going through cuz i dont....i just know that times can be stuff and that i still care even though she does think im a horrible friend and shes intitled to her opinion. i just find it werid that i cant just let go u know not care. but i guess since we got so close and shared so much and been through alot....alot of stuff that probably wasnt neccssary but thats okay. its hard for me to let go of alot of things....even small tiny things....i guess i'll just alwayz be like that oh well....but everyone cherish waht you have because its true when its gone all you'll want is for everything to be like it was before. and once it changes it doesnt go back. just watch and listen and be catious in everything you do because if you dont later you'll sit there and regret and wish you could go back and you cant....thats my advice because i have wished too many times that i could go back and change alot of stuff....but i changed under my own nose...i might of changed for the good and i ani't saying my life anit good....cuz i cant complain i have a great bf that loves me i got a job that pays nearly not enough but i still got a job and i got friends that love me and are there for me....but the one thing i dont got is the security that all this will be here for as long as i want it to be here.....i wanna say forever but forever usual never lasts and if it does for me then god is really looking out for me. im not really sad tonight im just writing whats been on my mind....i thought i would. but i think i've done enough venting enjoy...