Feb 28, 2007 21:10
Can two people ever just be friends? Two people that once dated but wouldn't admit that to each other until they broke up just be friends after the breakup? Two people that once had feelings for eachother, stay friends and not acknowledge those feelings?
Can two people ever forget about what they once felt? One partner out of that pair might still be holding on to that friendship because of those feelings. But arent both holding onto the friendship because there are still feelings.
Why do people stay friends after breaking-up? Because they don't want to hurt feelings and they treasure what there used to be.
Is it possible that they treasure the past and are hoping, hanging on, thinking that maybe it will occur again?
Why say something like, "I can't rule out the future" during the break-up discussion if you want to break up?
Maybe you just don't know what you want. Maybe you are afraid that you are going to screw up. Maybe you think you are growing up to fast, being forced to mature, scared, confused about how to interpret the feelings, not wanting to acknowledge those feelings, is this really the person because it is not what I pictured?
Maybe you want to keep the friendship so after you go fishing and realize the only fish in the sea that likes you is the one that you are "just friends" with. Isn't that settling? Are people okay with just settling?
What happens in a relationship when one person loves the other more than they love them back? Doomed to failure.
Soulmates? Really or puh-lease?
Do you risk bringing up the questions to your "just friends" partner? Or do you keep them in thinking that if you bring them up then you ruin the chance of winning them back in the future. What if both people in the "just friends" relationship are asking themselves all of these questions listed above? Then what? Do you wait until somebody else comes along?
All I know is that I am getting in again. Slowly sinking back into the quick sand and that is scary, slowly falling into the abyss. My mom asked me today, "So you and Jordan are just people that go out every two months?" I answer with, "Every month."
Why is it that she sees it and the two of us don't. I am beginning to see it. I thought I was over it and the little things are all starting again, all over again. I don't want it to lead to heartbreak but I just keep thinking that he's something. Something important in my life. I feel comfortable when I am with him. I feel secure and I have this feeling like I know he is going to be around forever and all of this scares me because I don't know what he's thinking. Worse yet, he could just be thinking I have this great friend here and it's great that she is only my friend now after all of this.
I don't want to just be his friend anymore. I'm done with that. I want it back. I want what it used to be and I am dying to scream this out loud and the thought of him dating somebody else (as far as I know he's not) makes me crumble inside. I can't handle it and when I find out that he is somebody, which is very likely, then I hope I am with somebody else because if I am all alone and still holding out for him then it will crush me completely.
Lost is on tonight, how ironic.