so yea
life is pretty gay right now, im serving no purpose at all. i have no car for 2 months, until the next report card. but i dont know, i guess i need to fucking grow up. i made a to-do list and a goals list that i am determined to get done.
TO-DO LIST:
Clean room ASAP
Get a job ASAP
Draw 10 pictures
Do good in school
Get into college? (or decide what alternative to take)
GOALS:
Keep room clean
Get a good job
Get a car
Finish portfolio
Get good grades on next report card
Get accepted to college
Make parents proud
Be a better person
Like myself and be ok
Sigh, life fucking sucks. Im so determined to grow up but im so fucking scared. These past three days i have been doing a lot of thinking about my future and my life. i was a nomad from wednesday til saturday, sleeping at robbies and ksenias. Being at robbies house was amazing, i want to live with him so bad, sleeping in his arms and having him make me breakfast and just to be with him for hours and hours is great. i love him so much, hes the best thing that ever happened to me and to know he feels the same makes it 10 times better, he is my life and my love. and to have friends like i have, im so fucking lucky, its mind boggling to have friends who would die for you, they mean so much to me, i hope they know it.... yea no more mushy stuff.... so my sister and my niece are coming for my graduation i found out, im really excited about that, i want everyone to hang out with my sister and kara, they rule, sometimes. lol. blah, i dont want to write in here anymore, once i start i wont stop. super depressed but whatever, im over it, life sucks.
bye.
TO-DO LIST:
Clean room ASAP
Get a job ASAP
Draw 10 pictures
Do good in school
Get into college? (or decide what alternative to take)
GOALS:
Keep room clean
Get a good job
Get a car
Finish portfolio
Get good grades on next report card
Get accepted to college
Make parents proud
Be a better person
Like myself and be ok
Sigh, life fucking sucks. Im so determined to grow up but im so fucking scared. These past three days i have been doing a lot of thinking about my future and my life. i was a nomad from wednesday til saturday, sleeping at robbies and ksenias. Being at robbies house was amazing, i want to live with him so bad, sleeping in his arms and having him make me breakfast and just to be with him for hours and hours is great. i love him so much, hes the best thing that ever happened to me and to know he feels the same makes it 10 times better, he is my life and my love. and to have friends like i have, im so fucking lucky, its mind boggling to have friends who would die for you, they mean so much to me, i hope they know it.... yea no more mushy stuff.... so my sister and my niece are coming for my graduation i found out, im really excited about that, i want everyone to hang out with my sister and kara, they rule, sometimes. lol. blah, i dont want to write in here anymore, once i start i wont stop. super depressed but whatever, im over it, life sucks.
bye.