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Gah have you ever wonder what it would be like if people didn't have feelings toward the opposite sex!?!?!? haha i do!
gah i hate having them! I mean this guy was a part of my past, i mean a huge part of it, and now we like barely talk. I wish we still did, he always helped me... i don't no how but he just did! and now i miss that! and i have tried a lot of times to talk to him bout it but never is the same.
* I have always been so conservative with my feelings except towards to olivia, and now i have just totally let go. I still wonder to myself should i keep them in? but idk ... like towards guys... i usually don't tell them that i like them because im scared of rejection. and i did the other night, i told sum1 i liked them, i didn't get rejection, or at least not total rejection...just i don't know. and like i have told some people things that are close to me and im just so scared of what they think. i think it is time for me to think what i need to and not let drama like this crap get to me, I mean in like the future its all gunna mean nuthn. but o well...
*Gah i feel so mean lately, so hateful! y?
* i haven't been crying... don't no y just scared to ... i wanna cry for good and bad things but if i cry i will cry for like ever! and i don't want to, cuz it will bring me down...\
* SHOUT OUT TO OLIVIA AND TARA YA"LL ARE GREAT AND I LOVE YA"LL!