Falling over the edge and such is life
Isn't it strange how you think of all the things you want to tell your friends about what is going on in your life, then when you sit down to do it you just come up with a blank?
Well first off, sorry I kind of fell off the world for a while guys.
It has become all I do on any given day is goto work and come home, simply to repeat the process again the next day. I have felt increasingly antisocial as the days and weeks have passed. I retreat into my computer and play WoW much like I used to escape into playing Cam on IRC or the like. Which I know isn't the most healthy or producive way to spend my nights, but it does keep me entertained. (cool stuff coming after self analyzing part).
I think that what has caused me to take a step back from, quite literally, everything Cam related is that I no longer had a passion for it. It ceased even entertaining me even to the point that it became something "unfun" that I was just expected (real or imagined by me) to do. You can only hear about so many peoples "evil, broken, cool, etc." plans, cotieries, characters, bloodlines, powers until it makes you want to scream. Not everyone is like that I know, but we all know people like that I am sure.
I do miss hanging out with my Cam friends more and maybe if I can shake this unusual need I find myself with to simply escape into my own mind and be alone I will be able to rejoin all the friends I have made in what has been a large chunk of my life for the last nearly nine years with a renewed vigor. (cooler part coming I promise)
My Mom has offically moved up to NC with my brother and his girlfriend, so that is both a great relief and load off my mind knowing she is alright... and I miss her. I have never lived more than an hour from her and for all the shit she has given me, and all the grief, I know she did that mostly because she was depressed and lonely.
Which I suppose I can understand, even though I am still here and present with K and things are good on that front, I feel like I have just been so very distant over the past couple of months and I know that has to be rough. I suppose for the last little while I haven't really been "living" my life. I have kind of been present as time goes by, I go the places I need to go and do the things I need to do... but it is kind of like I am on autopilot. I don't really have fun anymore, but I'm not sad either.
I am just here. Mind you there are worse places to be that here, like not being here :) Or being there.
Anyway, on to what I have actually been doing with my free time.
(this would be the cool part)
I have a lvl 70 Holy Paladin Blood Elf on the Quel'Dorei server by the name of Draxus. He is the main healer for my guild's group in the 10 man raid content and the MT (main tank) healer for the guild in 25 man raid content at end game. We just cleared Karazhan (10 man) last weekend, a full 1 day clear. I personally got 3 epic drops in that run, including one peice of my tier 4 raid set. We also managed to get Gruul (25 man stuff) down to 40% life on the third try for the group ever the same night. I also have a lvl 62 Orc Hunter, but I will tell you more about her when she has some more cool stuff that is worth talking about.
I have had a busy movie watching day, Breech and Knocked Up were both excellent as expected. However, I am gonna take a second to talk about DoA. Which is of course based on the video game series.
This movie was actually pretty good. As expected there was lots of very flexable hot girls wearing not alot and kicking much ass in a kung fu fashion (not often a bad thing in my book mind you). The special effects were appropriately cheesey and over the top, and the story was very appropriate to a video game movie.
I am gonna go watch a movie called Dynamite Warrior now, it's Thai. I just wanted to have a brief catchup because I was feeling a bit social and wanted to express my appology for falling off the world on all of you and let you all know that I haven't disappeared even if I am not as ever-present as I was before.
Well first off, sorry I kind of fell off the world for a while guys.
It has become all I do on any given day is goto work and come home, simply to repeat the process again the next day. I have felt increasingly antisocial as the days and weeks have passed. I retreat into my computer and play WoW much like I used to escape into playing Cam on IRC or the like. Which I know isn't the most healthy or producive way to spend my nights, but it does keep me entertained. (cool stuff coming after self analyzing part).
I think that what has caused me to take a step back from, quite literally, everything Cam related is that I no longer had a passion for it. It ceased even entertaining me even to the point that it became something "unfun" that I was just expected (real or imagined by me) to do. You can only hear about so many peoples "evil, broken, cool, etc." plans, cotieries, characters, bloodlines, powers until it makes you want to scream. Not everyone is like that I know, but we all know people like that I am sure.
I do miss hanging out with my Cam friends more and maybe if I can shake this unusual need I find myself with to simply escape into my own mind and be alone I will be able to rejoin all the friends I have made in what has been a large chunk of my life for the last nearly nine years with a renewed vigor. (cooler part coming I promise)
My Mom has offically moved up to NC with my brother and his girlfriend, so that is both a great relief and load off my mind knowing she is alright... and I miss her. I have never lived more than an hour from her and for all the shit she has given me, and all the grief, I know she did that mostly because she was depressed and lonely.
Which I suppose I can understand, even though I am still here and present with K and things are good on that front, I feel like I have just been so very distant over the past couple of months and I know that has to be rough. I suppose for the last little while I haven't really been "living" my life. I have kind of been present as time goes by, I go the places I need to go and do the things I need to do... but it is kind of like I am on autopilot. I don't really have fun anymore, but I'm not sad either.
I am just here. Mind you there are worse places to be that here, like not being here :) Or being there.
Anyway, on to what I have actually been doing with my free time.
(this would be the cool part)
I have a lvl 70 Holy Paladin Blood Elf on the Quel'Dorei server by the name of Draxus. He is the main healer for my guild's group in the 10 man raid content and the MT (main tank) healer for the guild in 25 man raid content at end game. We just cleared Karazhan (10 man) last weekend, a full 1 day clear. I personally got 3 epic drops in that run, including one peice of my tier 4 raid set. We also managed to get Gruul (25 man stuff) down to 40% life on the third try for the group ever the same night. I also have a lvl 62 Orc Hunter, but I will tell you more about her when she has some more cool stuff that is worth talking about.
I have had a busy movie watching day, Breech and Knocked Up were both excellent as expected. However, I am gonna take a second to talk about DoA. Which is of course based on the video game series.
This movie was actually pretty good. As expected there was lots of very flexable hot girls wearing not alot and kicking much ass in a kung fu fashion (not often a bad thing in my book mind you). The special effects were appropriately cheesey and over the top, and the story was very appropriate to a video game movie.
I am gonna go watch a movie called Dynamite Warrior now, it's Thai. I just wanted to have a brief catchup because I was feeling a bit social and wanted to express my appology for falling off the world on all of you and let you all know that I haven't disappeared even if I am not as ever-present as I was before.