Save Me From This Nightmare
wow i havent updated in awhile. not a lot has been going on. im pretty boring right now lol.
i went to the rodeo with morgan, rachel, n carl last weekend. and i actually had fun. i thought it would be super bored n shit. buuuut it was fun. i actually liked some of the music too. it wasnt just country. they actually played good music lol.
alright so blake completely fucked with my head. i left him a comment about how i hadnt talked to him in awhile n wanted to know how shtuff was going. cuz were supposed to be friends n we werent talking. so he messaged me n then called. n i talked to him for like 2 hours. it was great. i love talking to him. no matter what we talk its great. but anyway. he tells me i was his best girlfriend n some other stuff. n then i told him i wanted to go to bed because it was like 5 in the fucking morning. n hes like ok i love you bye. what the hell is that supposed to mean???? i have no idea. it pisses me off. i just finally got to the point where i wasnt upset about being broken up. he seemed fine about it. he already had a new girlfriend. what the fuck. seriously. but oh well. i just need to get over him. maybe i just shouldnt ever talk to him again. but i just cant do that. i cant have someone be a big part of my life and then just not be there anymore. i just cant handle that. not right now anyway. maybe i never will. i dont know. but i dont like the fact that when i talk to him he still calls me baby n says he loves me. those arent things you say to your friends. those are things you say to your girlfriend. right? i dont know. im done. i just cant figure any of it out.
so tomorrow im running errands with mom. woo. but i hafta go to the school. i need them to mail my final transcripts and my act scores. and i need to go to wit and have them mail my transcripts from them. so yea. maybe ill be able to see alex. that would be great. i miss alex. i really do. we used to be best friends. n now we dont even talk. wtf is up with that? idk. well im done bitching for one day. later.
i went to the rodeo with morgan, rachel, n carl last weekend. and i actually had fun. i thought it would be super bored n shit. buuuut it was fun. i actually liked some of the music too. it wasnt just country. they actually played good music lol.
alright so blake completely fucked with my head. i left him a comment about how i hadnt talked to him in awhile n wanted to know how shtuff was going. cuz were supposed to be friends n we werent talking. so he messaged me n then called. n i talked to him for like 2 hours. it was great. i love talking to him. no matter what we talk its great. but anyway. he tells me i was his best girlfriend n some other stuff. n then i told him i wanted to go to bed because it was like 5 in the fucking morning. n hes like ok i love you bye. what the hell is that supposed to mean???? i have no idea. it pisses me off. i just finally got to the point where i wasnt upset about being broken up. he seemed fine about it. he already had a new girlfriend. what the fuck. seriously. but oh well. i just need to get over him. maybe i just shouldnt ever talk to him again. but i just cant do that. i cant have someone be a big part of my life and then just not be there anymore. i just cant handle that. not right now anyway. maybe i never will. i dont know. but i dont like the fact that when i talk to him he still calls me baby n says he loves me. those arent things you say to your friends. those are things you say to your girlfriend. right? i dont know. im done. i just cant figure any of it out.
so tomorrow im running errands with mom. woo. but i hafta go to the school. i need them to mail my final transcripts and my act scores. and i need to go to wit and have them mail my transcripts from them. so yea. maybe ill be able to see alex. that would be great. i miss alex. i really do. we used to be best friends. n now we dont even talk. wtf is up with that? idk. well im done bitching for one day. later.