Oh dear that was lovely to read. Now I want the next chappie so bad. Jae finally realized the monster that is lurking and so the journey to conquer it begins. Now that Jae can say all his fear out loud, woudn't it be great if Yunho was eavesdropping and hear Jae's fear, thus enabling him to help Jae in this war with his own demon. It suck a big one of to so fearful of your surrounding, and I think Jae's biggest fear right now, even more than the sudden attack of the enemy, is losing Yunho because he deemed himself tainted and no longer good enough for Yunho. With the way Jae is feeling, Yunho needs to put his wit to good use and convince Jae that he will always be there for Jae.
I think Yunnie needs a lesson in patience because Jae is dealing with so much emotions at the same time. He needs to know it's more than jealousy that made Jae said what he said because like I said before, the fear is huge. May be the good doc and slap some of that senses into him. Like Jae stated, his touch is calming, but he needs to learn that and give Jae the shouler when needed, which is all the times. He just has to learn to be caring without suffocating Jae.
I have a conversation going on in my head right now so I can't concentrate. It was so lovely to read. Jae can finally say out loud his fear and it will get better, he has a great love that is beside him, and an all understanding friend also, it is NOT an option to fail!!!!
Have a good one dear, and as usual, it was a fantabulous read!!!
after posting the that comment I realized I fail to make it as long as I did as I usually did. Sorry to disappoint dear, but I was trying NOT to be rude to the person behind me and cut you short. I am terribly sorry.
What I meant to say that you capture Jae's feeling so well in the beginning. Jae doesn't feel like himself anymore, and this is where my philosophical wiser than my age self comes out. Yunho sleeping on the floor is not helping matter, and saying that he doesn't mind sleeping on the floor is in no way easing Jea's fear but reinforcing Jae's though of Yunho doesn't want him anymore, which we all know is quite far from the truth. Yes indeed our stubborn beauty physically push his love away, but more than anything, he wants Yunho to oppose to that. He is voicing his fear out loud, and Yunho needs to be there to help him kicking it in the ass!!! Loving Jae doesn't mean that he will succumb to Jae's every request, loving Jae is showing him that the love is always there, it was there before Jae capture, while Jae was gone and it is sure as hell still going to be there now that Jae is back into his arms. More than healing Jae's physical wounds, Yunho needs to learn of the emotion wounds that is holding Jae back. Every smile and touch and kiss will be meaning less to Jae for as long as he feel he is NOT deserving of it, and it is up to the Major to prove that to him, because Jae is more than convinced that he is no longer good enough. Our dear Yunnie can be slow sometimes doesn't he. Of course he is young, and the first time being this in love and this caring about another person that he doesn't quite know what to do. Yunho convinced himself that Jae is back and will stay in his arms, he will have to convince Jae that Yunho always hold Jae close, may be not physically but mentally Jae was always there.
Oh yeah, Jae also needs to know that being in a relationship is more than being physical. Being in a loving relationhip needs trust and faith in eachother, and Jae lacks both.
Jae needs his time to find himself and love himself again before he can accept Yunho's love, because all the love in the world can be shower on your but if you don't love yourself and allow yourself to be love, all of it is just going to be wasted effort.
Okay dear, thank you for reading, sorry it's so long, you can tell that once I get started I can't stop.
I really can't wait for more, I hope my two cents wasn't that time consuming to you.
I realized I fail to make it as long as I did as I usually did. No no no, don't stress. If you happen to give a 'book length' comment, then it's lucky for me. But if it's not a 'book length' comment then that's fine too *huggle* ^^
and saying that he doesn't mind sleeping on the floor is in no way easing Jea's fear but reinforcing Jae's though of Yunho doesn't want him anymore Spoken like a true philosopher. It's really ironic isn't it! Even though JaeJoong probably doesn't mind the fact that YH's sleeping on the floor because it means he won't accidentally mistake YH for a rapist in the night ^^;;, in his subconscious it's probably painting the illusion that YH + floor = definitely isn't wanting to be a lover with him. Emotions are so complicated T_T
Yes indeed our stubborn beauty physically push his love away, but more than anything, he wants Yunho to oppose to that. Brilliantly written. Applause! I love it. JaeJoong is definitely lost and feeling so much contrast - 'Push YH away for both our sakes' VS 'No, Yunho should fight back for me and prove me wrong'
Every smile and touch and kiss will be meaning less to Jae for as long as he feel he is NOT deserving of it It's always amazing how you are able to cover all the possibilities so eloquently! Almost like JaeJoong has low self-esteem mixed with self-pity and paranoia. Like you said, because of this Yunho needs to identify the emotion restraints JaeJoong is feeling before he can try and convince Jae by both words and actions that JaeJoong is still perfect to him.
Of course he is young, and the first time being this in love and this caring about another person that he doesn't quite know what to do. LOL true, but I guess in reality this sort of thing doesn't happen as extreme NOW-A-DAYS, so any young couple would be kinda mystified as to what to do. It's all a learning experience...Yunho learning how to treat JaeJoong when he's in this fragile mind-set. And JaeJoong has to learn how to get through it through experience T_T
he will have to convince Jae that Yunho always hold Jae close, may be not physically but mentally Jae was always there. Yeh JaeJoong was starting to get that impression from realising Yunho had dragged all his old belongings along despite JaeJoong not being there anymore. But I guess he's gonna need more convincing in order to mend this self-loathing mind frame of his.
Being in a loving relationhip needs trust and faith in eachother, and Jae lacks both. Very true. It's possible that JaeJoong still does have that faith in Yunho because Yunho's actions (generally) do allude to him still feeling strong for JaeJoong. But it might also be the case that even though the faith is there deep down, JaeJoong needs to fight through the confusion and identify it again without immaturely thinking 'ahh Yunho looked at someone else! He doesn't like me anymore!' The trust however...yeh he might trust Yunho but because of being traumatized he's lost trust in close proximity in general, so he needs to seperate the two and remember that Yunho is not like those people. It'll take time...timeee is their friend haha.
Jae needs his time to find himself and love himself again before he can accept Yunho's love LOL LOL LOL just what my earlier ramble was insinuating XDDD. Fabulous timing! But yes... Yunho can love him in crazy depths, but it's not gonna mean a thing whilst JaeJoong has such a low view on himself. JaeJooooongie, you are awesommme, hurry up and realise it T_T
I really can't wait for more, I hope my two cents wasn't that time consuming to you. Neverrrr. My nature appears to be one that NEEDS to constantly analyse and critique things so I always enjoy ranting on about different theories HAH. Plus I love the points of view that your comments bring up ^_____^. *Pats your brain lovingly* hahaha
Wish me luck with the next chapter. Hopefully there will be things to analyse again XD. (We'll always find something XDDDDDD)
Much love!! <3333
btw, I havent looked over this reply so if there are typos and/or sentences that make NO SENSE WHAT-SO-EVER than I apologise T____T
and so the journey to conquer it begins tee heeee, great visuals being produced in my tired, psychotic mind right now. Like of JaeJoong in a suit of armor, yielding a sexy sword and preparing the fight the even dragon in order to rescue Princess Fiona. (LOLL i did not just make a Shrek reference NOR did i use it because of my own name XDD <--lies!!)
Now that Jae can say all his fear out loud, woudn't it be great if Yunho was eavesdropping and hear Jae's fear Oiiii, they can't take the easy way out :D:D:D. But yeh... it would certainly solve a lot of the problems more quickly. But think about how NICE it will be for Yunho to find it out from JaeJoong's own mouth because he completely trusts Yunnie! *melts* XD
I think Jae's biggest fear right now, even more than the sudden attack of the enemy, is losing Yunho hehe, great picking up on that.
With the way Jae is feeling, Yunho needs to put his wit to good use WIT TO GOOD USE!! NICE ONE!!!! *tries to stop giggling*
I think Yunnie needs a lesson in patience As usual you pick up on elements in the following chapters XD.
May be the good doc and slap some of that senses into him. Hopefully not literally XD.
He just has to learn to be caring without suffocating Jae. Ahh yes. Maybe we should create a "How to handle the brat named JaeJoong for dummies"...not that JaeJoong's a brat per see...but you get what I mean.
I have a conversation going on in my head right now so I can't concentrate ...O_O Do you want Hangeng to go give you a checkup?. Just jokkkking of course. I completely understand XD.
OKAY on to the next reply of yours... Hopefully I can be more serious this time when answering...>_< <-- tired brain somehow equated to stupidity ^^;;
I think Yunnie needs a lesson in patience because Jae is dealing with so much emotions at the same time. He needs to know it's more than jealousy that made Jae said what he said because like I said before, the fear is huge. May be the good doc and slap some of that senses into him. Like Jae stated, his touch is calming, but he needs to learn that and give Jae the shouler when needed, which is all the times. He just has to learn to be caring without suffocating Jae.
I have a conversation going on in my head right now so I can't concentrate. It was so lovely to read. Jae can finally say out loud his fear and it will get better, he has a great love that is beside him, and an all understanding friend also, it is NOT an option to fail!!!!
Have a good one dear, and as usual, it was a fantabulous read!!!
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What I meant to say that you capture Jae's feeling so well in the beginning. Jae doesn't feel like himself anymore, and this is where my philosophical wiser than my age self comes out. Yunho sleeping on the floor is not helping matter, and saying that he doesn't mind sleeping on the floor is in no way easing Jea's fear but reinforcing Jae's though of Yunho doesn't want him anymore, which we all know is quite far from the truth. Yes indeed our stubborn beauty physically push his love away, but more than anything, he wants Yunho to oppose to that. He is voicing his fear out loud, and Yunho needs to be there to help him kicking it in the ass!!! Loving Jae doesn't mean that he will succumb to Jae's every request, loving Jae is showing him that the love is always there, it was there before Jae capture, while Jae was gone and it is sure as hell still going to be there now that Jae is back into his arms. More than healing Jae's physical wounds, Yunho needs to learn of the emotion wounds that is holding Jae back. Every smile and touch and kiss will be meaning less to Jae for as long as he feel he is NOT deserving of it, and it is up to the Major to prove that to him, because Jae is more than convinced that he is no longer good enough. Our dear Yunnie can be slow sometimes doesn't he. Of course he is young, and the first time being this in love and this caring about another person that he doesn't quite know what to do. Yunho convinced himself that Jae is back and will stay in his arms, he will have to convince Jae that Yunho always hold Jae close, may be not physically but mentally Jae was always there.
Oh yeah, Jae also needs to know that being in a relationship is more than being physical. Being in a loving relationhip needs trust and faith in eachother, and Jae lacks both.
Jae needs his time to find himself and love himself again before he can accept Yunho's love, because all the love in the world can be shower on your but if you don't love yourself and allow yourself to be love, all of it is just going to be wasted effort.
Okay dear, thank you for reading, sorry it's so long, you can tell that once I get started I can't stop.
I really can't wait for more, I hope my two cents wasn't that time consuming to you.
^.^
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I realized I fail to make it as long as I did as I usually did.
No no no, don't stress. If you happen to give a 'book length' comment, then it's lucky for me. But if it's not a 'book length' comment then that's fine too *huggle* ^^
and saying that he doesn't mind sleeping on the floor is in no way easing Jea's fear but reinforcing Jae's though of Yunho doesn't want him anymore
Spoken like a true philosopher. It's really ironic isn't it! Even though JaeJoong probably doesn't mind the fact that YH's sleeping on the floor because it means he won't accidentally mistake YH for a rapist in the night ^^;;, in his subconscious it's probably painting the illusion that YH + floor = definitely isn't wanting to be a lover with him. Emotions are so complicated T_T
Yes indeed our stubborn beauty physically push his love away, but more than anything, he wants Yunho to oppose to that.
Brilliantly written. Applause! I love it. JaeJoong is definitely lost and feeling so much contrast - 'Push YH away for both our sakes' VS 'No, Yunho should fight back for me and prove me wrong'
Every smile and touch and kiss will be meaning less to Jae for as long as he feel he is NOT deserving of it
It's always amazing how you are able to cover all the possibilities so eloquently! Almost like JaeJoong has low self-esteem mixed with self-pity and paranoia. Like you said, because of this Yunho needs to identify the emotion restraints JaeJoong is feeling before he can try and convince Jae by both words and actions that JaeJoong is still perfect to him.
Of course he is young, and the first time being this in love and this caring about another person that he doesn't quite know what to do.
LOL true, but I guess in reality this sort of thing doesn't happen as extreme NOW-A-DAYS, so any young couple would be kinda mystified as to what to do. It's all a learning experience...Yunho learning how to treat JaeJoong when he's in this fragile mind-set. And JaeJoong has to learn how to get through it through experience T_T
he will have to convince Jae that Yunho always hold Jae close, may be not physically but mentally Jae was always there.
Yeh JaeJoong was starting to get that impression from realising Yunho had dragged all his old belongings along despite JaeJoong not being there anymore. But I guess he's gonna need more convincing in order to mend this self-loathing mind frame of his.
Being in a loving relationhip needs trust and faith in eachother, and Jae lacks both.
Very true. It's possible that JaeJoong still does have that faith in Yunho because Yunho's actions (generally) do allude to him still feeling strong for JaeJoong. But it might also be the case that even though the faith is there deep down, JaeJoong needs to fight through the confusion and identify it again without immaturely thinking 'ahh Yunho looked at someone else! He doesn't like me anymore!'
The trust however...yeh he might trust Yunho but because of being traumatized he's lost trust in close proximity in general, so he needs to seperate the two and remember that Yunho is not like those people. It'll take time...timeee is their friend haha.
Jae needs his time to find himself and love himself again before he can accept Yunho's love
LOL LOL LOL just what my earlier ramble was insinuating XDDD. Fabulous timing!
But yes... Yunho can love him in crazy depths, but it's not gonna mean a thing whilst JaeJoong has such a low view on himself. JaeJooooongie, you are awesommme, hurry up and realise it T_T
I really can't wait for more, I hope my two cents wasn't that time consuming to you.
Neverrrr. My nature appears to be one that NEEDS to constantly analyse and critique things so I always enjoy ranting on about different theories HAH. Plus I love the points of view that your comments bring up ^_____^. *Pats your brain lovingly* hahaha
Wish me luck with the next chapter. Hopefully there will be things to analyse again XD. (We'll always find something XDDDDDD)
Much love!! <3333
btw, I havent looked over this reply so if there are typos and/or sentences that make NO SENSE WHAT-SO-EVER than I apologise T____T
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and so the journey to conquer it begins
tee heeee, great visuals being produced in my tired, psychotic mind right now. Like of JaeJoong in a suit of armor, yielding a sexy sword and preparing the fight the even dragon in order to rescue Princess Fiona. (LOLL i did not just make a Shrek reference NOR did i use it because of my own name XDD <--lies!!)
Now that Jae can say all his fear out loud, woudn't it be great if Yunho was eavesdropping and hear Jae's fear
Oiiii, they can't take the easy way out :D:D:D. But yeh... it would certainly solve a lot of the problems more quickly. But think about how NICE it will be for Yunho to find it out from JaeJoong's own mouth because he completely trusts Yunnie! *melts* XD
I think Jae's biggest fear right now, even more than the sudden attack of the enemy, is losing Yunho
hehe, great picking up on that.
With the way Jae is feeling, Yunho needs to put his wit to good use
WIT TO GOOD USE!! NICE ONE!!!! *tries to stop giggling*
I think Yunnie needs a lesson in patience
As usual you pick up on elements in the following chapters XD.
May be the good doc and slap some of that senses into him.
Hopefully not literally XD.
He just has to learn to be caring without suffocating Jae.
Ahh yes. Maybe we should create a "How to handle the brat named JaeJoong for dummies"...not that JaeJoong's a brat per see...but you get what I mean.
I have a conversation going on in my head right now so I can't concentrate
...O_O Do you want Hangeng to go give you a checkup?. Just jokkkking of course. I completely understand XD.
OKAY on to the next reply of yours... Hopefully I can be more serious this time when answering...>_< <-- tired brain somehow equated to stupidity ^^;;
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