screaming into the unknown.
i have found a new stress buster. screaming. at the top of my lungs. until i almost feel so dizzy that i can sense my complete nothingness. i dont scream at anyone, though. i just scream. *chanel is my scream friend. we do it together in her car*
derek has been with haley for a while, and i didnt even know. i wouldnt have even said anything if i had known. why didnt he tell me? is he just afraid? i would have just reacted like a friend and would have supported it... he claims that in a way, im a good friend, but he just cant treat me like it is so. i dont understand. its just depressing. i knew that he would eventually just forget about his little spring break friend. dont get me wrong, im not a lovseick little girl, im just sad about our friendship. this whole thing is crazy. its just stupid.
im going to go cut my dads hair. and then ill turn in my application to subway. hopefully there wont be any cars on the road to "swerve" into.
"you arent defeated until the sun goes down."
well my ship is sinking.
STUPID FUCKING HIGHSCHOOL DRAMA!
..........................................................i quit.
derek has been with haley for a while, and i didnt even know. i wouldnt have even said anything if i had known. why didnt he tell me? is he just afraid? i would have just reacted like a friend and would have supported it... he claims that in a way, im a good friend, but he just cant treat me like it is so. i dont understand. its just depressing. i knew that he would eventually just forget about his little spring break friend. dont get me wrong, im not a lovseick little girl, im just sad about our friendship. this whole thing is crazy. its just stupid.
im going to go cut my dads hair. and then ill turn in my application to subway. hopefully there wont be any cars on the road to "swerve" into.
"you arent defeated until the sun goes down."
well my ship is sinking.
STUPID FUCKING HIGHSCHOOL DRAMA!
..........................................................i quit.