College!!!!
Well, i havent wrote in here in a long time. My first year of college was like everyone elses with the partying and drinking and being away from parents. It was all good til i had a bring break up in november of 05. All my friends said i went downhill from that and so did my grades. The second semester was better. It started off with me getting my tongue pierced in january and them meeting a really special person in february the 2nd to be exact. But still my grades were not high enough to pass my first yr. So over the summer i appealed it and got back in which was wonderful.
THIS SEMESTER SO FAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well the special someone is closer to me now. I know its wrong to be with them but I cant help it because when everything is wrong this person is right here wit me to make it all right or at least try. When i go home everything is ruined. My parents argue with my brother, with each other and apparently talk about me when im not around but when i come home everything is suppost to be peachy. THats why i decided only to go home when i need to. I went home for the first time since school started on my birthday and that was ruined. I was suppost to have a birthday party then my dad invites EVERYONE especially his racist friends which made fun of my friends but i get in trouble which is bullshit. Now even thought these ppl are white and my dad isnt there is one thing thats the same ALCOHOL IS ALL THE SAME brandy will alwayx be brown and vodka will alwayz be clear. Also i couldnt bring that special someone with me for my birthday but honestly she had more fun without me i think. Now with all this said it brings me to today.
It all started out good. But jus recently the ppl u think are ur so called friends wanna make jokes behind ur back which is bullshit. and then everyone wants to ask ME whats wrong. They know what the fuck is wrong.
As i get older life gets harder and harder. Im too damn fat right now to go into the army and ive been trying for three yrs and it sux when i refer ppl they get in before u. All my life ive been mad fun of and called names. I am 20 yrs old now but ppl are assholes. My own parents call me stupid. Like that is suppost to boost ur confidence. I walk around everywhere pretending im all hard and shit with a big smile on my face but on the inside im crying and scared. I put a front up around everyone even my parents. What the hell am i suppost to do.?????!!!!!???????
THIS SEMESTER SO FAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well the special someone is closer to me now. I know its wrong to be with them but I cant help it because when everything is wrong this person is right here wit me to make it all right or at least try. When i go home everything is ruined. My parents argue with my brother, with each other and apparently talk about me when im not around but when i come home everything is suppost to be peachy. THats why i decided only to go home when i need to. I went home for the first time since school started on my birthday and that was ruined. I was suppost to have a birthday party then my dad invites EVERYONE especially his racist friends which made fun of my friends but i get in trouble which is bullshit. Now even thought these ppl are white and my dad isnt there is one thing thats the same ALCOHOL IS ALL THE SAME brandy will alwayx be brown and vodka will alwayz be clear. Also i couldnt bring that special someone with me for my birthday but honestly she had more fun without me i think. Now with all this said it brings me to today.
It all started out good. But jus recently the ppl u think are ur so called friends wanna make jokes behind ur back which is bullshit. and then everyone wants to ask ME whats wrong. They know what the fuck is wrong.
As i get older life gets harder and harder. Im too damn fat right now to go into the army and ive been trying for three yrs and it sux when i refer ppl they get in before u. All my life ive been mad fun of and called names. I am 20 yrs old now but ppl are assholes. My own parents call me stupid. Like that is suppost to boost ur confidence. I walk around everywhere pretending im all hard and shit with a big smile on my face but on the inside im crying and scared. I put a front up around everyone even my parents. What the hell am i suppost to do.?????!!!!!???????