Nice
Sometimes I feel so dejected, and not good enough. Sometimes I feel that the harder I try to do nice things, the more they aren't good enough or I didn't try hard enough, or your questions weren't answered.
I used to love going to bed at night because it meant that you were the last person whom I talked to. It is so different at night now. I love talking to you, but now I go to bed and I cry sometimes.
I never seem to have the right answers for you, and I never seem to do EVERTHING that you want me to do. The harder I try to do nice things and go out of my way for you, the more it feels that they are not appericated.
For example: tonight on the phone, I told you about the test, well I didn't have all the answers, and I"m sorry. Not once did I hear though, thank you for finding out what you did for me, that was very nice. No, all I heard was well you didn't answer my questions so you obvisouly didn't find out enough about that test. Sorry, but appericate what I did for you, at least I took the time to look.
I constantly feel that I am not good enough for this relationship, and that I may never be good enough. I know when I say that you say okay think what you want. Well you know be encouraging. I was to you. I told you that you would do just fine taking that test and that I had faith in you (which I truly do believe and I truly do have faith in you). Do the same for me. Tell me you know babe, I'm sorry you think that, I'm sorry that maybe I did something to make you think that, but you are good enough for me, and I don't want you to ever think you aren't good enough for me.
I know maybe I should not be writing all of this, and maybe I shouldn't feel the way I do about some things, but I do feel that way. I just want to hear a thank you every once in a while. It has been forever since I have heard a thank you come from anyone for anything that I did. I just want to hear that I am needed and appericated. I tell you all the time, can you tell me?
I used to love going to bed at night because it meant that you were the last person whom I talked to. It is so different at night now. I love talking to you, but now I go to bed and I cry sometimes.
I never seem to have the right answers for you, and I never seem to do EVERTHING that you want me to do. The harder I try to do nice things and go out of my way for you, the more it feels that they are not appericated.
For example: tonight on the phone, I told you about the test, well I didn't have all the answers, and I"m sorry. Not once did I hear though, thank you for finding out what you did for me, that was very nice. No, all I heard was well you didn't answer my questions so you obvisouly didn't find out enough about that test. Sorry, but appericate what I did for you, at least I took the time to look.
I constantly feel that I am not good enough for this relationship, and that I may never be good enough. I know when I say that you say okay think what you want. Well you know be encouraging. I was to you. I told you that you would do just fine taking that test and that I had faith in you (which I truly do believe and I truly do have faith in you). Do the same for me. Tell me you know babe, I'm sorry you think that, I'm sorry that maybe I did something to make you think that, but you are good enough for me, and I don't want you to ever think you aren't good enough for me.
I know maybe I should not be writing all of this, and maybe I shouldn't feel the way I do about some things, but I do feel that way. I just want to hear a thank you every once in a while. It has been forever since I have heard a thank you come from anyone for anything that I did. I just want to hear that I am needed and appericated. I tell you all the time, can you tell me?