If I'm a loser or just un-lucky...so are you

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Nothing seems real anymore. and I don't even know why I am dwelling on it cuz everything is good. I mean I am going to college, and not just college I am in the Honors College at Western, I am getting my license, I am done with probation two months early and go to court in a couple of weeks, I get to hang out with friends, annnd Chris told me that he still loves me. Everything seems perfect right now, nothing is wrong and for once it really is all good.
I don't understand why I always question things. If something is working out in my life I always wait for it to fall apart. I don't know but nothing seems real. For me it doesn't seem like things should be this good this soon. To tell you the truth I have to make myself remeber what happened cuz I don't really. I don't think about it, for me it's like it never happened. For some reason I don't think that is right. I mean I'm very very glad that things are good. I hate it when things are bad. Seriously who wouldn't? but it just all seems to damn easy. It seems like I got off to easy. What did I ever do to deserve redemption? What did I do to deserve a clean slate. I don't know it just seems weird and slightly Twilight Zone. so YEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH I am being emo and dumb for questioning these things but whatever...
*hugs loves and kisses
Cait