ugh
I'm just not satisfied with the way my life is going right now, and I wish I could change it. Problem is, even though I hate the job I have I need it, I can't afford to do the traveling I want to do, and I can't remove this tumor my ferret has. I just want to get away for a while and think. I just really need to get away and have some fun without constantly being nagged to do something I don't want to do. Selfish really. I just want to be as smart as my mom wishes I was. I want her to look at me and be proud because "doing my best" has finally made something work. And I want to be able to talk to somebody about all this without getting emotional like I am now. Shit, this sucks.