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im sorry LJ i really do love you i just never know what to write in you. : (
everyone came home for spring break last week and it was so nice. i had to pick patwick up from the deer park trainstation that friday night, and we were driving home and then like all of a sudden we were on 111. and pat turns to me,
"congratulations wallner, you're the first person to get me home from deer park in 27 seconds!"
"i'm not driving fast!"
"yea, not driving fast for someone in nascar.."
pat really makes me laugh a whole lot. thats why he's my friend. haha. then i had made a "gangster" cd and i had it on when i picked him up. so i got this,
"hey pat wanna listen to some music?"
::some gangster song comes on::
"well i see nothings changed since i went away to college."
let's see, i went to montauk over the break, i went to roosevelt field mall twice (and only spent like.. $50, damn im good), saw '16 blocks' which was SO good. mos def is in it & im pretty sure im in love with him, but i love talib kweli more, uhm i hung out with PLK, the usual stuffs. friday night was st. patrick's day which means someone had to have a st. patricks day party. and it was wonderful. my mom had gotten me a met jersey that was green and orange and had a shamrock on it and it had david wright on the back so i felt very festive.
oh goodness i almost forgot prolly the most important part of the week. i FINALLY met babs. he's pats friend from college who talks to me all the time and we just never knew eachother but knew eachothers lives. kinda creepy? yea but he's awesome. and we had a cake made for him for his visit. i don't think anyones ever gotten a cake when they come to meet someone they've never met before but im just THAT cool.
i did realize though since all my friends went away to college, which ones really are my friends. i guess its kinda sad in a way, but im glad i can count on certain people to always be there for me. i realize more everyday how much i hated smithtown. i don't know everyones like oh theres so much here and so many people and whatnot. but i really just hate a lot of it. i don't know. theres so many people i was nice to pretty much because i had to be & i really regret ever doing that. i shouldn't have to pretend to be someones friend. & i don't think people should pretend to be my friend. because if you really have that much of a problem with me you should tell me. although i honestly don't know what i could do to someone to make them not like me. yea that didn't sound cocky or anything. im glad at how i turned out i guess? im being more open with people and im kinda very happy with where im at in my life right now.
..im actually very happy with my life. i think im finally the person i've always wanted to be. im happy with the old friends i still have, & im happy i met so many great people this year (even if it was at sears.) cause honestly, i don't know what i would do without them. im actually friends with a girl at work. weird. but yea shes petty much my clone and i think thats why we get along so well, its nice to have girl talk once and awhile. we have to go prom dress shopping. which we're taking a whole day off from work and were going to be girls and buy things. its so exciting.
today i bought tickets to go see talib kweli, the roots & mos def. <3 im so beyond excited. everyone knows how much i love *NSYNC, well i love talib kweli almost as much. i almost cried when i thought i wouldn't be able to go to the concert. but im going with mike & my friend rich from work. ahh. im so beyond excited. its at radio city and i think i might like faint or something because i love talib kweli so freaking much. ha, no im kidding.
over my spring break im going up to geneseo with a bunch of people and staying with pat, josh & babs, and we're going to see guster. which im also excited about. i hope they play numbers. ahh. haha. that was from 2 summers ago. wow.
ahh this summer is looking pretty good so far, considering it starts may 9. chea chea. im going to disney world with my family (minus my dad) july 10-16. july 17-some day babs is having a week long party at his house so im gonna go to that one day. i might be going to cedar point in ohio because they have 16 roller coasters! prolly some six flags action in there too. maybe hershey? i don't know. im so exicted.
oh and that whole college thing. yea. i hate farmingdale more than anything. as much as i love my new friends here, id much rather be away. i applied to cortland & brockport. i didn't get in to cortland, which pissed me off and made me cry for like 3 hours, and i haven't heard from brockport yet, but i dont want to go there anymore. but once i found out i didnt get into cortland i applied to oswego. so im really hoping i get in to oswego cause i loved that place when i went to visit it.
me & mike have been going out for like 2 months now. im really happy about that. he's definatly a funny kid & he can always cheer me up. he talks about cars way too much though. haha. but yea he's really great and stupid things happened that kinda messed it up, but we're fixing it & everythings going really good. & im just really happy. : )
daniel conklin is my best friend in the entire world. we had a lot of problems over the past week but he's really always there to listen to my problems no matter what and im glad i can have someone i can go to talk at any time.
& nick cantos too he's like my best friend. because he just tells me things straight out. im sure he'll never read this. but i know that he's an awesome kid & im glad i trained him to work at sears. and im glad he listens to me & im glad he tells me when im being a bitch. haha.
i can't remember the last time i wrote this much in an entry. i think i got everything out that i wanted to say.. im gonna go pretend to do something. <3
**edit. i forgot to mention that last night we had a mini *NSYNC party. me & lindsay went to michelle's house. we updated eachother on our lives and talked very little about *NSYNC but its still and *NSYNC party. we called shelbi to remind her of times past, but she didn't answer. we called erin and talked to her for a lil, and we're all in a fight with eachother & we're not friends with anyone anymore. & if one of us are friends with eachother we wont be for very long. haha. <3
everyone came home for spring break last week and it was so nice. i had to pick patwick up from the deer park trainstation that friday night, and we were driving home and then like all of a sudden we were on 111. and pat turns to me,
"congratulations wallner, you're the first person to get me home from deer park in 27 seconds!"
"i'm not driving fast!"
"yea, not driving fast for someone in nascar.."
pat really makes me laugh a whole lot. thats why he's my friend. haha. then i had made a "gangster" cd and i had it on when i picked him up. so i got this,
"hey pat wanna listen to some music?"
::some gangster song comes on::
"well i see nothings changed since i went away to college."
let's see, i went to montauk over the break, i went to roosevelt field mall twice (and only spent like.. $50, damn im good), saw '16 blocks' which was SO good. mos def is in it & im pretty sure im in love with him, but i love talib kweli more, uhm i hung out with PLK, the usual stuffs. friday night was st. patrick's day which means someone had to have a st. patricks day party. and it was wonderful. my mom had gotten me a met jersey that was green and orange and had a shamrock on it and it had david wright on the back so i felt very festive.
oh goodness i almost forgot prolly the most important part of the week. i FINALLY met babs. he's pats friend from college who talks to me all the time and we just never knew eachother but knew eachothers lives. kinda creepy? yea but he's awesome. and we had a cake made for him for his visit. i don't think anyones ever gotten a cake when they come to meet someone they've never met before but im just THAT cool.
i did realize though since all my friends went away to college, which ones really are my friends. i guess its kinda sad in a way, but im glad i can count on certain people to always be there for me. i realize more everyday how much i hated smithtown. i don't know everyones like oh theres so much here and so many people and whatnot. but i really just hate a lot of it. i don't know. theres so many people i was nice to pretty much because i had to be & i really regret ever doing that. i shouldn't have to pretend to be someones friend. & i don't think people should pretend to be my friend. because if you really have that much of a problem with me you should tell me. although i honestly don't know what i could do to someone to make them not like me. yea that didn't sound cocky or anything. im glad at how i turned out i guess? im being more open with people and im kinda very happy with where im at in my life right now.
..im actually very happy with my life. i think im finally the person i've always wanted to be. im happy with the old friends i still have, & im happy i met so many great people this year (even if it was at sears.) cause honestly, i don't know what i would do without them. im actually friends with a girl at work. weird. but yea shes petty much my clone and i think thats why we get along so well, its nice to have girl talk once and awhile. we have to go prom dress shopping. which we're taking a whole day off from work and were going to be girls and buy things. its so exciting.
today i bought tickets to go see talib kweli, the roots & mos def. <3 im so beyond excited. everyone knows how much i love *NSYNC, well i love talib kweli almost as much. i almost cried when i thought i wouldn't be able to go to the concert. but im going with mike & my friend rich from work. ahh. im so beyond excited. its at radio city and i think i might like faint or something because i love talib kweli so freaking much. ha, no im kidding.
over my spring break im going up to geneseo with a bunch of people and staying with pat, josh & babs, and we're going to see guster. which im also excited about. i hope they play numbers. ahh. haha. that was from 2 summers ago. wow.
ahh this summer is looking pretty good so far, considering it starts may 9. chea chea. im going to disney world with my family (minus my dad) july 10-16. july 17-some day babs is having a week long party at his house so im gonna go to that one day. i might be going to cedar point in ohio because they have 16 roller coasters! prolly some six flags action in there too. maybe hershey? i don't know. im so exicted.
oh and that whole college thing. yea. i hate farmingdale more than anything. as much as i love my new friends here, id much rather be away. i applied to cortland & brockport. i didn't get in to cortland, which pissed me off and made me cry for like 3 hours, and i haven't heard from brockport yet, but i dont want to go there anymore. but once i found out i didnt get into cortland i applied to oswego. so im really hoping i get in to oswego cause i loved that place when i went to visit it.
me & mike have been going out for like 2 months now. im really happy about that. he's definatly a funny kid & he can always cheer me up. he talks about cars way too much though. haha. but yea he's really great and stupid things happened that kinda messed it up, but we're fixing it & everythings going really good. & im just really happy. : )
daniel conklin is my best friend in the entire world. we had a lot of problems over the past week but he's really always there to listen to my problems no matter what and im glad i can have someone i can go to talk at any time.
& nick cantos too he's like my best friend. because he just tells me things straight out. im sure he'll never read this. but i know that he's an awesome kid & im glad i trained him to work at sears. and im glad he listens to me & im glad he tells me when im being a bitch. haha.
i can't remember the last time i wrote this much in an entry. i think i got everything out that i wanted to say.. im gonna go pretend to do something. <3
**edit. i forgot to mention that last night we had a mini *NSYNC party. me & lindsay went to michelle's house. we updated eachother on our lives and talked very little about *NSYNC but its still and *NSYNC party. we called shelbi to remind her of times past, but she didn't answer. we called erin and talked to her for a lil, and we're all in a fight with eachother & we're not friends with anyone anymore. & if one of us are friends with eachother we wont be for very long. haha. <3