Sick
I am now officially on sick until the start of next semester (January). I have been letting things get on top of me lately. I am one of those people who always seems to put everybody else first. I went to the see the doctor about something unrelated to my illness and came out with a perscription for anti-depressants. In the last 12 weeks i have lost my child, my girlfriend, the closest person i had to a real grandma, i have started my final year at university, i have moved house, been put in charge of 36 freshers and their problems and the problems they cause, my mother is desperately ill (quite possibly cancer), my sister is in hospital, i have a problem with alcohol, i have/am attending counselling, my knee has collapsed and is in desperate need of surgery (going back into hospital on december 5th)and i have to go to trial at Preston Crown court on the 25th November for when i was assaulted and headbutted. I have tried soo desperately hard not to let any of the above affect me completing my uni work/assignments etc but you know what, i can't/won't do it anymore, my health, sanity and getting better is more important to me that attempting to do uni work on top of everything else that is happening in my life. I don't want sympathy, lots more people are going through equally if not worse situations and times than me, it just feels like everything has hit me in one go..its times like these real friends stand up and be counted. I have noticed some people in and around my life only ever want to know me when i am being cheery, laughing, taking the piss. Sometimes though, what more can anyone do other than say they are sorry?? Oh well...