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So its almost the end of the year...
I decided to go back to my new years resolution and see if i actually made them happen..
2005' resolutions were...
[taken from Jan 3, 2005]
1.Stay Focused
2.Open My Heart Up
3.Don't be such a home body
no lose weight resolutions etc. its stupid. i have come to realize that life is to short and i see mad chicks hung up on their weight. If they would take the time to love themselves they would realize that others love them regardless
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I had A private resolution that you couldn't see but I'll share:
4. Learn to let go...Stop pretending.
So yea time to reflect.
#1--- I def have stayed focused. graduated college. started grad school. My grades are on point. I have made some goals that I keep on my bulletin board in my room. My sister shakes her head when she looks at it but I am achieving them and I hope to continue on that path.
#2--- Open my heart up. after the whole malik fiasco i had serious issues with my heart. Shit since wayne i have had issues w/ my heart. Since then I have tried the Shon, Joey, G and now the K situation (im sure there are 19 other names i am forgetting). I think I am open to new things, more then before, so i think i have progressed. I still think i have issues when it comes to the opposite sex but now i think I'm entirely to passive. If something happens it happens but I don't chase it like before. So maybe i have progressed...dont get me wrong having a stable situation would be nice but if i don't have it there are always 106 other things to worry about.
#3--- I def followed through with this one. I got active in new things this year. met a lot of new people so YAY me.
#4--- Learn to let go...I did let go of the two things that were making me unhappy.
A. Not having him was a hard time in my life and I kept the pain to myself. Over the last year I have grown to realize that my happiness shouldn't be dependant on ANY man EVERRRRR.
B. The second thing i let go of many of you know. I wasn't happy, and the fake ass smile i was walking around with was one of the dumbest things I have ever done. Its crazy because if i counted the # of times someone walked up to me in the past few mths and said "You seem different" or "Wow you changed" i would be rich (SERIOUSLY).
I have been able to realize who was and wasn't a real friend. Tiffany and Samantha stopped me last week and said that they were proud of me and they were glad to see me happy, which seriously meant a lot to me.
so i look back and I am proud of who I am and who I am becoming...
my favorite new quote has been...
All are architects of fate. So look not mournfully
into the past. It comes not back again.
its true. we are all the deciding factors of our lives. Don't spend your days sad about what you did and what you shouldn't have done. Mistakes our made but not meant for us to dwell on. LET GO!! Spend your time looking into your future and who you will become.
resolutions for 2006 soon to come...
I decided to go back to my new years resolution and see if i actually made them happen..
2005' resolutions were...
[taken from Jan 3, 2005]
1.Stay Focused
2.Open My Heart Up
3.Don't be such a home body
no lose weight resolutions etc. its stupid. i have come to realize that life is to short and i see mad chicks hung up on their weight. If they would take the time to love themselves they would realize that others love them regardless
[/taken quote]
I had A private resolution that you couldn't see but I'll share:
4. Learn to let go...Stop pretending.
So yea time to reflect.
#1--- I def have stayed focused. graduated college. started grad school. My grades are on point. I have made some goals that I keep on my bulletin board in my room. My sister shakes her head when she looks at it but I am achieving them and I hope to continue on that path.
#2--- Open my heart up. after the whole malik fiasco i had serious issues with my heart. Shit since wayne i have had issues w/ my heart. Since then I have tried the Shon, Joey, G and now the K situation (im sure there are 19 other names i am forgetting). I think I am open to new things, more then before, so i think i have progressed. I still think i have issues when it comes to the opposite sex but now i think I'm entirely to passive. If something happens it happens but I don't chase it like before. So maybe i have progressed...dont get me wrong having a stable situation would be nice but if i don't have it there are always 106 other things to worry about.
#3--- I def followed through with this one. I got active in new things this year. met a lot of new people so YAY me.
#4--- Learn to let go...I did let go of the two things that were making me unhappy.
A. Not having him was a hard time in my life and I kept the pain to myself. Over the last year I have grown to realize that my happiness shouldn't be dependant on ANY man EVERRRRR.
B. The second thing i let go of many of you know. I wasn't happy, and the fake ass smile i was walking around with was one of the dumbest things I have ever done. Its crazy because if i counted the # of times someone walked up to me in the past few mths and said "You seem different" or "Wow you changed" i would be rich (SERIOUSLY).
I have been able to realize who was and wasn't a real friend. Tiffany and Samantha stopped me last week and said that they were proud of me and they were glad to see me happy, which seriously meant a lot to me.
so i look back and I am proud of who I am and who I am becoming...
my favorite new quote has been...
All are architects of fate. So look not mournfully
into the past. It comes not back again.
its true. we are all the deciding factors of our lives. Don't spend your days sad about what you did and what you shouldn't have done. Mistakes our made but not meant for us to dwell on. LET GO!! Spend your time looking into your future and who you will become.
resolutions for 2006 soon to come...