my fucking life sucks really big monkey balls lately....
this has been the worsest week ever..in a long time too, i was doing great then this week was just no words to describe it. In my mothers words.."your grounded until the die I die." meaning when she dies yeah ok, just says she wants me to die before her, well i dont care when i die, itll just end my misery sooner. yestedays practice BLOWED...i swear im sick of the littel freshman who try and out do me, nope not gonna happen, back down NOW! Then im torn apart wit a friend, i dont know if anything is gonna happen between us because he sends some mixed signals and i dont like it cause those things ruin friendships! I want an answer or something, like i feel like he cares cause hes always concerned about how i am doing or like yesterday he went through my best friend to see if he could help, like it shows me he cares, but if hes telling some ppl one thing and i have more ppl coming 2 me saying back off he dont like u he still likes her and its like ya'll need to laeve me the hell alone and let me deal wit my business and that means ur not in it. then...the fucking icing on my cake today, at practice i noticed my ankle was really sore so i looked and it was kinda bruised, its been hurting ever since i had my little spill at the b-ball game in feb....yeah cant forget that night, but like i woke up and looked at it and it liked funny but i had to wait and see what othe ppl said, amy says shell kick my butt if i dont get it checked out jess wants me to go to the doctor and im supposed ot do all of this and not expect them to say oh ur hurt u need to stay off of it and risk my teams chances of losing or not having a good season at all...nope, itll heal, i hope, its hurting now thats why im complaining, well hit me up or call me later with what u think i should do or what the hell i need to just talk to someone ...