this is so dumb
ok so...( just for your Julie miss ya) I've been talking to this guy. I'm not even sure its going anywhere, but Lets just say I like him. Why try and lie and say that I don't. Well I was starting to fall back into my typical obsession and fears that accompany me when I like somebody and ultimately kill off what ever relationship there is. Keep in mind there is no relationship right now, we're just too people meeting up, and talking. By the way its really nice I love my parents but I need some social action. Well after tonight I still feel the same way, all the anxiety is gone. THIS is HUGE. This anxiety starts day one for me usaully, I tried to hard to fight it and be normal when Devin and I were dating, But its not there. Maybe it was because in the car I was still unsure if anything would come of this, I'm still unsure of this. Yeah I won't go through a litany of Reasons thats it. This is a new cool feeling to follow a date, if we were on a date. I can't explain the Relief in my head right now, This is kind of a big deal for me.