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o...m.....g.....
I shouldn't have done that... but I did, and now I can't un-find out what I found out. And wow. Blows my effing mind. *shit*
I shouldn't have done that... but I did, and now I can't un-find out what I found out. And wow. Blows my effing mind. *shit*
Does it reallyblow your mind, or did you need to hear something you may have actually thought about before?
I am sorry you are going through this. I know it feels like it's just so %&$^#&*# unfair right now. It just might be a good thing (I know, it might not seem like it now - in fact it seems like anything but) that you asked whatever it is you asked about. Because while it sucks, it's giving you clarity and consciousness about the direction this has to take - whether you both like it or not. Bluntness can do that to us, whether we brace ourselves for it or it just slaps us in the face. Just because someone has shifted over to something, someone or somehwere new doesn't mean they aren't experiencing the same feeling if even to a degree.
Reflecting on the fact that your mind, your heart, your life becomes comfortable with the presence of certain people, things, characteristics, relationships doesn't mean that if it goes away, you should try to avoid finding comfort in it again. Part of just being a normal human being is having those comfortable spaces, moments, things, characteristics (etc etc) that give us comfort. Just as equal are those that bring us discomfort. Unless we have a taste of both things can get foggy.
I hate to sound like an afterschool special here (and I have an 18-page paper due tomorrow afternoon) so I will stop. I can provide clarification post-sleep, post-coffee and post-18-pages-from-scratch.
It is good to see you around these parts again. Nothing like the real world to bring a person back from hiatus... I should know.
-n
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