Jan 07, 2007 16:11
What seemed like a PERFECT night...ended with a horrible morning. I did it again. I left. Even though I WANTED to stay. I'm so scared. Not of him....of me. What if III make a stupid decision that I'm not ready to make? He assures me that everything will be okay and that I shouldn't regret anything but...this is a big deal to me. It's who I am. So....what I feared most has happened...I screwed up. Grr. WHY!!! WHY AM I DOING THIS?!?!?! Is he still gonna be around after all this is done? Is it gonna be awkward? Damnit.*slaps self* That's what you get for seeing me naked.