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I love my roommates
........ but they really piss me off and annoy me sometimes (aka supposed to share food but eat all of mine and then not replace it... slash when they bring food they dont ever bring enough or they bring stupid stuff that none of us eat and then complain that we dont have anyfood)
I love my bunnies
..... I now have 2. My baby mopsy, and Tete (short for octavius). except... seb is dumb and didnt think about the fact that they are both boys.. so getting them to be friends may be near impossible. I must now go invest in another cage for tete and then another one for their "neutral area play cage"
I think I am starting to see what I want to do with my life.
....... I want to to philanthropic volunteer activities in other countries. I want to be a teacher and organize excursions for kids to go on such activities at a younger age since I never had that opportunity. I want to create organizations at school for drug intervention, better sex education, and just a place for kids to go, a person for them to talk to when they have noone/nowhere else.
I cant wait to be a wife and a mother.
...... Having the two bunnies is like having two kids. Mopsy (the older one) is having such territorial, jealous, confused older kid syndrome. Like when a kid is 2 or 3 and the parents have another baby it gets super confused about having to share everything. Mopsy = exact characteristics. Its like having kids. Its difficult ish and what not but idk . i like dealing with it and what not. Aand were cat sitting right now. so its like having an emo snotty older foster child too. lol
I enjoy learning alot.
...... But school is getting old. I have the option to graduate a semester early. I might. Or I might triple minor. we'll see.
I CANT WAIT TO GO TO SPAIN AND OTHER PLACES.
...... I am going to be studying abroad.. most likely this summer and I CANT WAIT. I also think I might do this global crossroads thing and go to costa rica to help out at orphanages and stuff this summer. I cant wait. I'm so excited.
I'm still not a typical college student.
..... sometimes it really really bothers me. I wish i didnt care and I could fail at school and go out and get drunk and date a bunch of different guys and want not. but... at the same time im really glad im not like that. Most of the kids like that I know have their priorities all out of whack. Most of them. The one thing tho is that I wish I was out dating. I love seb and want to be with him. I want him to be my husband and the father of my children. but I miss the whole mysteriousness the excitingness the unknowningness the falling in loveness and getting mad abotu stupid stuffness and all that annoying stuff that comes with dating. I havent really truly had it u know? Ive had 3 boyfriends. And.. well... that was high school. I wish I could be like sex and the city, and gossip girl, and just all those shows where girls just date around and fall in love, and break hearts, and get their heart broken and all of that. Sometimes i really need that chaos and drama. but then again... I already have what I want to be for the rest of my life... so why should I even go look u know? well see. seb and I have talked about it. and he feels similarly. Maybe well try an open relationship. Maybe Ill just take time to be "free" while im out of the country. Who knows
I really miss Japan.
...... I really miss my family in japan and here. The smells. the awkward silences. The food. The laughing. The fighting. the facial expressions. etc. i cant wait until I can contribute my own little ones to it too.
I like my friends.
..... I like that I dont have to see them everyday or make too much effort to see them all the time and when we do hang out we just pick up where we left off. I love all of them dearly and im always surprised at the odd places Ive made friends and never recognized before. It makes me feel very good inside.
..... On the other hand it makes me sad that i dont have just a couple of friends or a group of friends that i do see all the time and that want to see me all the time and were really close and all that. I know its not necesarry and the older u get the harder it is to find and maintain relationships like that. but idk. im happy and im sad. theres a small void in my heart still. idk why.
I really like cooking.
...... I really wish I had more money and more time to spend cooking.
I really like sewing.
....... I wish i had more money and time for this too.
ive been shopping a lot.
..... I seem to be missing something... and I keep shopping to try and fill this spot with material things. I cant figure out what it is that im missing.
I hate when I get into really weird insecure moods and become a control freak about things.
..... cleaning. organizing. muttering. im turning into my mother. hiding things.
I like my job.
..... I make bank! the people are awesome! and the food is good!
i think ive ranted for long enough.
........ but they really piss me off and annoy me sometimes (aka supposed to share food but eat all of mine and then not replace it... slash when they bring food they dont ever bring enough or they bring stupid stuff that none of us eat and then complain that we dont have anyfood)
I love my bunnies
..... I now have 2. My baby mopsy, and Tete (short for octavius). except... seb is dumb and didnt think about the fact that they are both boys.. so getting them to be friends may be near impossible. I must now go invest in another cage for tete and then another one for their "neutral area play cage"
I think I am starting to see what I want to do with my life.
....... I want to to philanthropic volunteer activities in other countries. I want to be a teacher and organize excursions for kids to go on such activities at a younger age since I never had that opportunity. I want to create organizations at school for drug intervention, better sex education, and just a place for kids to go, a person for them to talk to when they have noone/nowhere else.
I cant wait to be a wife and a mother.
...... Having the two bunnies is like having two kids. Mopsy (the older one) is having such territorial, jealous, confused older kid syndrome. Like when a kid is 2 or 3 and the parents have another baby it gets super confused about having to share everything. Mopsy = exact characteristics. Its like having kids. Its difficult ish and what not but idk . i like dealing with it and what not. Aand were cat sitting right now. so its like having an emo snotty older foster child too. lol
I enjoy learning alot.
...... But school is getting old. I have the option to graduate a semester early. I might. Or I might triple minor. we'll see.
I CANT WAIT TO GO TO SPAIN AND OTHER PLACES.
...... I am going to be studying abroad.. most likely this summer and I CANT WAIT. I also think I might do this global crossroads thing and go to costa rica to help out at orphanages and stuff this summer. I cant wait. I'm so excited.
I'm still not a typical college student.
..... sometimes it really really bothers me. I wish i didnt care and I could fail at school and go out and get drunk and date a bunch of different guys and want not. but... at the same time im really glad im not like that. Most of the kids like that I know have their priorities all out of whack. Most of them. The one thing tho is that I wish I was out dating. I love seb and want to be with him. I want him to be my husband and the father of my children. but I miss the whole mysteriousness the excitingness the unknowningness the falling in loveness and getting mad abotu stupid stuffness and all that annoying stuff that comes with dating. I havent really truly had it u know? Ive had 3 boyfriends. And.. well... that was high school. I wish I could be like sex and the city, and gossip girl, and just all those shows where girls just date around and fall in love, and break hearts, and get their heart broken and all of that. Sometimes i really need that chaos and drama. but then again... I already have what I want to be for the rest of my life... so why should I even go look u know? well see. seb and I have talked about it. and he feels similarly. Maybe well try an open relationship. Maybe Ill just take time to be "free" while im out of the country. Who knows
I really miss Japan.
...... I really miss my family in japan and here. The smells. the awkward silences. The food. The laughing. The fighting. the facial expressions. etc. i cant wait until I can contribute my own little ones to it too.
I like my friends.
..... I like that I dont have to see them everyday or make too much effort to see them all the time and when we do hang out we just pick up where we left off. I love all of them dearly and im always surprised at the odd places Ive made friends and never recognized before. It makes me feel very good inside.
..... On the other hand it makes me sad that i dont have just a couple of friends or a group of friends that i do see all the time and that want to see me all the time and were really close and all that. I know its not necesarry and the older u get the harder it is to find and maintain relationships like that. but idk. im happy and im sad. theres a small void in my heart still. idk why.
I really like cooking.
...... I really wish I had more money and more time to spend cooking.
I really like sewing.
....... I wish i had more money and time for this too.
ive been shopping a lot.
..... I seem to be missing something... and I keep shopping to try and fill this spot with material things. I cant figure out what it is that im missing.
I hate when I get into really weird insecure moods and become a control freak about things.
..... cleaning. organizing. muttering. im turning into my mother. hiding things.
I like my job.
..... I make bank! the people are awesome! and the food is good!
i think ive ranted for long enough.