So then there is she
I kind of want to call her. I searched for her last night and found her, now I kind of want to call her. SHe's going to NAU in flagstaff and I found her phone number. I guess it still makes me a freak, 6 years after the fact. Maybe I'll just do it, and laugh about how I was in love with her for so very long. maybe she'll laugh that I was in love with her. After all, it wasa long time ago. Maybe I should write her. taht might be easier. I'm usually much better with my words when I have time to think them out and out hem on paper. What does it matter anyways, I'll never see her again. SO why even go throug the trouble of gettng in touch. Maybe I'll write her. maybe I'll call. Maybe she'll pick up the phone. Or perhaps I'll just do what I find I can do best, sit here in a puddle of self loathing and pity.
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