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I'm so bored. I have nothing to do. I can't go anywhere, all weekend. It so stupid. My cousin is coming up to visit and I can't even do anything with her. Of course I get grounded two days before she comes up, and one of my good friends I've known sinse I was in first grade is moving away and I can't even see her before she moves away. Oh and this is our three day weekend. My luck.
Last night I got into this big fight with my mom. She got so mad she just started hitting me uncontrollably so I dont hit her back I just block her right. Im not hittin her she wouldnt stop so I spit in her face. She doesnt stop. Then she does. Next thing you know I'm grounded. She tells my dad that she hit my once and then I attacked her because she hit my once. So my dads givin me this line of shit oh your moms afraid of you. She shouldn't be afraid of you. It's not healthy. So I tell him no she hit me and kept on hitting me. Then all in the end we drive to Walgreens and he says your not gonna like what I gotta say but I'm gonna say it anyway. You both are telling me a different story, and I dont believe you.. Your mom is afraid of you, why would she be afraid of you if you didn't keep on hitting her. That stupid bastard. How the fuck. He doesn't even know me what I meet him and know he knows. Nuh Uh. No. God. I am just so mad right now, and I don't know how to express it. I keep throwing and breaking things and it just keeps on getting me in deeper. I need like anger management, but I would hate that soo much. Not that it is going to happen.
Then I get this email from Karen last night not her really saying anything to me its just a letter that she sends to a lot of people telling them about the Out Of The Darkness walk that is on July 16 and 17th. So I'm like wow she e-mailed me. Cause I e-mailed her a long time ago and she never e-mailed me back. It was really weird. So I'm looking on the site and I find where it says oh you have to have raised $1,075 by June 16 a month before the walk and thats in like 20 days. Why did she tell me about this so late? Why didn't she e-mail me back. Why hasn't she been keeping in touch. And it's too late for me to collect that money how the hell am I going to collect that much money in 20 days. I can't do that. No way in hell. It was so hard to collect 600 or 700 for the last walk and I didnt even collect all of that. A girl at school helped. Which was really nice of her. Oh and then some girl that sits at my lunch table on white days comes to school one day and she has a jar and I read it and it says "OUT OF THE DARKNESS FUNDRAISNG MONEY" and she tells me how shes so excited to go and she has over a 1,000 dollars raised and how shes doing so good. That made me really sad. I mean happy that shes collecting all that money. Just seeing that she did that and she's going to it and everything just makes me sad. And I want to be apart of the walk. Why didn't she call me. That makes me think things like. Why? I don't get it.
whatever.
Last night I got into this big fight with my mom. She got so mad she just started hitting me uncontrollably so I dont hit her back I just block her right. Im not hittin her she wouldnt stop so I spit in her face. She doesnt stop. Then she does. Next thing you know I'm grounded. She tells my dad that she hit my once and then I attacked her because she hit my once. So my dads givin me this line of shit oh your moms afraid of you. She shouldn't be afraid of you. It's not healthy. So I tell him no she hit me and kept on hitting me. Then all in the end we drive to Walgreens and he says your not gonna like what I gotta say but I'm gonna say it anyway. You both are telling me a different story, and I dont believe you.. Your mom is afraid of you, why would she be afraid of you if you didn't keep on hitting her. That stupid bastard. How the fuck. He doesn't even know me what I meet him and know he knows. Nuh Uh. No. God. I am just so mad right now, and I don't know how to express it. I keep throwing and breaking things and it just keeps on getting me in deeper. I need like anger management, but I would hate that soo much. Not that it is going to happen.
Then I get this email from Karen last night not her really saying anything to me its just a letter that she sends to a lot of people telling them about the Out Of The Darkness walk that is on July 16 and 17th. So I'm like wow she e-mailed me. Cause I e-mailed her a long time ago and she never e-mailed me back. It was really weird. So I'm looking on the site and I find where it says oh you have to have raised $1,075 by June 16 a month before the walk and thats in like 20 days. Why did she tell me about this so late? Why didn't she e-mail me back. Why hasn't she been keeping in touch. And it's too late for me to collect that money how the hell am I going to collect that much money in 20 days. I can't do that. No way in hell. It was so hard to collect 600 or 700 for the last walk and I didnt even collect all of that. A girl at school helped. Which was really nice of her. Oh and then some girl that sits at my lunch table on white days comes to school one day and she has a jar and I read it and it says "OUT OF THE DARKNESS FUNDRAISNG MONEY" and she tells me how shes so excited to go and she has over a 1,000 dollars raised and how shes doing so good. That made me really sad. I mean happy that shes collecting all that money. Just seeing that she did that and she's going to it and everything just makes me sad. And I want to be apart of the walk. Why didn't she call me. That makes me think things like. Why? I don't get it.
whatever.