In the computer room thing at school....

[wickedstyxtsol]

Close friends become friends... friends become less close... those friends become people you once knew sorda well. In the end you're left with an occasional smile or "sorry" when you bump into each other. I still don't quite understand the cycle of events that leads to having less friends. Sometimes I wonder if it's Evan's fault at least partially. Then I remember... he's my love. Love and beauty are really the only things worth living for. There's so much beauty in the world... so much. I hate how I often forget it and end up sad.... sometimes I feel so depressed that I forget to go outside and look at the mountains or into his eyes. Sometimes I think about Max and remember how I used to feel for him... sometimes I feel so ugly but then again... who cares. The world is beautiful.

I hate these keyboards... so very very much. Anyway, this will be my most recent post since Celwin.