And once again...
So I'm sitting here and I'm thinking about friends. And I've decided I'm a not so good one, if I was I would (a) have a lot more and (b) be able to hold them longer. I've also decided that I'm not really a fun person to be around. What am I supposed to do about it? I'm the person that sits in the corner and watches everyone else doing spontaneous stupid things and wishing I was a part of it but knowing I can't and/or won't join in. I realize I'm the same exact person I was in middle school, only with a little more defenses. I build up this wall and I don't let anyone else in. And I'm waiting and waiting and waiting for someone to come and not give up on me despite all of my negative efforts. But you know that no one is going to come. And even when I do try, I feel like I'm doing something wrong or that I can't win. No...I can't win. I try and try and try and nothing.
How can you fix something if you don't even know what's wrong with you. You've got the pretty (or not so pretty in my situationg *yes that is a factor*) outside and when you dig down under that's nothing or there's just this wall of something a baby would poop out. yeah, it's just shit.
When it comes down to it, it's just you. Well what if you are nothing?
How can you fix something if you don't even know what's wrong with you. You've got the pretty (or not so pretty in my situationg *yes that is a factor*) outside and when you dig down under that's nothing or there's just this wall of something a baby would poop out. yeah, it's just shit.
When it comes down to it, it's just you. Well what if you are nothing?