For life.
Why do I have to be so different from everyone else. I hate how being myself isnt enough for me. That fucker who screwed up my self esteem when I was little has fucked up so much of my life. I don't know why I pretend to be so strong at mind. If I was to have never of moved to this coldasac I wouldnt be so fuckin negative about meself. That fucker. The more I think about that asshole who would hurt me and harass me all the time. I'm prolly gonna be like this all my life unless I don't get a ton of self esteem about myself. Going to highschool and seeing people I'm friends with and I envy some of the traits they have that I could've had. Knowning who I am now I have a big heart for people but sometimes it gets in the way. I don't stick up for myself when people hit me sometimes is cause I can't do what I hate so much. Hit somebody back is so hard for me. I am what I hate. The way I would ever feel better about myself is if I was to kick that bastards ass who put me through all this shit when I was younger. More to come later. I have to go think.....
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