Dec 08, 2004 05:11
Be what you wanna be
See what you came to see
Been what you wanna be
I don't like what I see
I don't think any song lyrics could describe how I feel about Andrew any better. Too bad it's my favorite song….. I do not like the person he's become since he has gone away to college. Each year just gets worse and worse! And this year he has his own apartment with his friends so now there’s absolutely no room in his life for me anymore. What’s hilarious is that he actually expected me to put up with it. I’m supposed to be perfectly fine with him NEVER calling while at school and being reduced to seeing him for about 8 hours a day twice a month. Fuck your rules Andrew. A relationship shouldn’t have guidelines like that.
Do what you wanna do
Go out and seek your truth
When I’m down and blue
Rather be me than you
Yeah Andrew, go ahead and drink your life away partying, and look down on me because you go to a four year college. I really don’t envy you at all. If you think it’s so important to “have fun” by trashing your body in your early years, do it. I hope you become an alcoholic. And it will be so worth it because that’s what you’re all about, desperately making sure you have ample amounts of fun before you have to settle down, regardless of the consequences. If it means losing me, oh well, at least you made sure you partied. I don’t even give a fuck anymore. Oh, what’s that you say? Oh right of course, you can do whatever the hell you want regardless if it upsets me or not because we’re not married. You say it’s not important to treat someone well until you’re married? Well I got news for you buddy, no one will put up with that shit, like I did and you have to treat someone well so they’ll want to marry you in the first place. It doesn’t come after, you fucking retard.
I should of called before I came over. What the hell is that? I’ve never been so insulted in my life! You should welcome the person you love! You made me feel like such an intruder. I guess even after being together for 3 years and coming over everyday doesn’t give me a right to be there. So you did what you’re always been so good at: dismissed me immediately. How dare I interrupt you at your party.
In the back, off the side, far away is a place where I hide and where I stay
Tried to say, tried to ask, I needed to all alone, by myself
Where were you?
How could I ever think its funny how everything you swore would never change is different now.
Just like you would always say we’d make it through.
Then my head fell apart.
Where the fuck were you?
I’ve given all I can. My patience has run out. You always said that you going away to school wouldn’t affect our relationship, Andrew, but you were the one who made things difficult. There’s no good reason to why it shouldn’t have worked. You just never cared. Your selfishness, inconsideration and lack of respect for me are the reasons why I kicked you to the curb. Maybe one day you realize what a good thing you lost.
And what's hilarious is that I know for a fact that you'll never read this. That would require thinking about me and wondering how I feel, which you never did. Hahahaha.