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i feel old.
i feel like what's the point of starting a new relationship, because chances are it's going to end and just hurt more. how many times do you have to do this? 4? 10?
part of me just doesn't want to do it anymore. so many people want to date around etc and it's just not where i'm at. because really, whats the whole point of laying yourself out for someone when months/years down the road it all just culminates in a night of rocky road ice cream, and a box of tissues?
maybe it's just because i know what i want. it's not as if i'm testing the waters. and i don't do relationships halfway. it's all or nothing for me.
let's clear something up. i'm not looking for someone to marry. i just want stability.
but i don't really think i want to look anymore. shit just hurts too much these days. what happened to the days when a chocolate bar healed a broken heart?
i feel like what's the point of starting a new relationship, because chances are it's going to end and just hurt more. how many times do you have to do this? 4? 10?
part of me just doesn't want to do it anymore. so many people want to date around etc and it's just not where i'm at. because really, whats the whole point of laying yourself out for someone when months/years down the road it all just culminates in a night of rocky road ice cream, and a box of tissues?
maybe it's just because i know what i want. it's not as if i'm testing the waters. and i don't do relationships halfway. it's all or nothing for me.
let's clear something up. i'm not looking for someone to marry. i just want stability.
but i don't really think i want to look anymore. shit just hurts too much these days. what happened to the days when a chocolate bar healed a broken heart?