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just finished work. i'm off for a whole 38 hours.
since stef and i broke up, i haven't cried about it. i would almost start but i refused to let it start. i don't know why. maybe it's pride because he saw me cry right before and i don't let anyone see me breakdown. but yea. not a single tear for 3 weeks, but i'm talking to will about it now and i just lost it. fucking hell. at least no one is here to see it.
but here is the truth once and for all. i lie about it all the time but the real honest to god truth is that i really, really miss him so badly it hurts.
there i said it. don't expect me to admit it again. i have a hard time admiting it to myself.
plus i miss my sister so much. she's at tanglewood. maybe i can drive to see her tomorrow or something. i dont care that its like 2 hours away. i need my emme right now. :\
since stef and i broke up, i haven't cried about it. i would almost start but i refused to let it start. i don't know why. maybe it's pride because he saw me cry right before and i don't let anyone see me breakdown. but yea. not a single tear for 3 weeks, but i'm talking to will about it now and i just lost it. fucking hell. at least no one is here to see it.
but here is the truth once and for all. i lie about it all the time but the real honest to god truth is that i really, really miss him so badly it hurts.
there i said it. don't expect me to admit it again. i have a hard time admiting it to myself.
plus i miss my sister so much. she's at tanglewood. maybe i can drive to see her tomorrow or something. i dont care that its like 2 hours away. i need my emme right now. :\