been awhile...
aright.. so its been awhile since ive udpdated.. an i guess i really need to... OK.. shit where to begin... i feel exhausted... in every way possible... i feel like i have no time to think an that im a robot.. i do what im told to every day... all day... i come home an have no time to myself... only to sleep at nite.. i dont even dream ne more.. which fuckin bothers me cuz i used to be able to control my dreams... i think im losing myself... who am i?? theres things that i used to do that i havent done in a year.. my friends brought things up tonite.. an i dint kno it like i used to.. not becuz i dint want to... but becuz i had no one to be interested in me... no one ever tries to find out about what im like.. or what i believe in.. ive been with the same person for a year n i dun think he knos half the things that i believe in... what the fuck is that?? how can i call it love if i cant even share my thoughts or beliefs with this person. i dont think he's ever stopped me.. but hes never asked or shown an interest either.... n i kno that ive brought stuff up... but i dun think i ever felt like i needed to share that with him...
CANCER FREE IS THE WAY TO BE
MaST charter cheerleaders take first place...
i bought a prom dress...
Maybe i need time to be me... i think ive lost everything that i thought i was.. ive turned into this stereotype.. u would never know that all ive ever tried to do was break it... i always refused to come off a certain way.. but in the last year ive lost my battle.. ive had no strength to stand up an be what i always thought i was...
I SAW MY KEETHARAH PREFORM!
She was awesome... she means more to me then she knows... an i was blown away becuz u could tell how much feeling she puts into everything she does... !!
CANCER FREE IS THE WAY TO BE
MaST charter cheerleaders take first place...
i bought a prom dress...
Maybe i need time to be me... i think ive lost everything that i thought i was.. ive turned into this stereotype.. u would never know that all ive ever tried to do was break it... i always refused to come off a certain way.. but in the last year ive lost my battle.. ive had no strength to stand up an be what i always thought i was...
I SAW MY KEETHARAH PREFORM!
She was awesome... she means more to me then she knows... an i was blown away becuz u could tell how much feeling she puts into everything she does... !!