Apr 09, 2004 13:15
I hate myself sometimes, I really do. I feel like that stupid song on that stupid soundtrack that says "If you knew me like I know myself, you'd hate me like I hate myself." Que lastima!
Perhaps I think about things too much. My dad's told me that a million times or so "Ya know, Audrey, you're the type of person that thinks too much and doesn't live enough. You gotta enjoy life, Audrey...." Thanks.
If I had it all, you know, I'd FUCK it up....(yet another song that I relate to, how spectacular!). When I get something that I want, or almost have it, I screw something up and lose it. If it's there I'm not really interested in it, but as soon as it's lost, I desperately want it, almost need it.
Anyway, today Mic and I are going somewhere, Obear Park maybe? I dunno. Gotta eat lunch first, and stop thinking negataively too. Either way, I'm a teenager and this is what we do, gripe about how complicated life is when in reality it's probably one of the most simple stages in our lives. How ironic. If this really is a simple time in my life, then I think my life is going to suck royally. Thank you.