Try to get you, you know you make me break down...
I don't know what it is about matt but he makes me break down.
Like I can't breathe without you next to me.
However, it is fading. It doesn't have as strong a grip on me as it used to.
We talked finally this morning. I dropped him off monday with $100 bucks at daniels and haven't really heard from him since. Tuesday nothing, Wednesday for 30 seconds, Thursday at work for 30 seconds. Then this morning, 5 am " I'm hungry bring me food and smokes please?" Okay, but you need to pay for it... " I'm broke" So you only call me or text me when your broke and need something. how nice.
We talked. Changes will be made one way or the other. Even if I have to move. I'll do it. I'll go live with Christian for 6 months. I'll go away and not look back for a while. See if that gives him the wake up call he needs.
I hpe that it doesnt come to that. but it may.
Jeff and llunch was amazing again. We went to a bookstore! I love bookstores! I love giggling in the sex section and perusing the music and movies, and the pyschology books! I found my self in the self help section too. I found a book i'm gonna go get this weekend http://search.barnesandnoble.com/booksearch/isbninquiry.asp?EAN=9780071433693&x=4811310
It's called Addicted to Unhappiness. It sounded a lot like me and what I've always felt was wrong with me.
I started a wish list at Barnes and Noble. Haha. It includes titles such as "Addicted to Unhappiness" "HOw to break your addiction to a person" "What to do when your therapist isn't there" "Better single then sorry" "It's a breakup not a breakdown" "If we ever break up, this is my book" and my favorite "Be Honest--You're Not That into Him Either: Raise Your Standards and Reach for the Love You Deserve"
I am going to Lindora today on my lunch.
This is a new me, people.
I deserve better. I demand better. I will have it.
Like I can't breathe without you next to me.
However, it is fading. It doesn't have as strong a grip on me as it used to.
We talked finally this morning. I dropped him off monday with $100 bucks at daniels and haven't really heard from him since. Tuesday nothing, Wednesday for 30 seconds, Thursday at work for 30 seconds. Then this morning, 5 am " I'm hungry bring me food and smokes please?" Okay, but you need to pay for it... " I'm broke" So you only call me or text me when your broke and need something. how nice.
We talked. Changes will be made one way or the other. Even if I have to move. I'll do it. I'll go live with Christian for 6 months. I'll go away and not look back for a while. See if that gives him the wake up call he needs.
I hpe that it doesnt come to that. but it may.
Jeff and llunch was amazing again. We went to a bookstore! I love bookstores! I love giggling in the sex section and perusing the music and movies, and the pyschology books! I found my self in the self help section too. I found a book i'm gonna go get this weekend http://search.barnesandnoble.com/booksearch/isbninquiry.asp?EAN=9780071433693&x=4811310
It's called Addicted to Unhappiness. It sounded a lot like me and what I've always felt was wrong with me.
I started a wish list at Barnes and Noble. Haha. It includes titles such as "Addicted to Unhappiness" "HOw to break your addiction to a person" "What to do when your therapist isn't there" "Better single then sorry" "It's a breakup not a breakdown" "If we ever break up, this is my book" and my favorite "Be Honest--You're Not That into Him Either: Raise Your Standards and Reach for the Love You Deserve"
I am going to Lindora today on my lunch.
This is a new me, people.
I deserve better. I demand better. I will have it.