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i ama eating chick-n-minis from chikfila. hehe.
so last night we went to disneyland and it was great. we wenton my rides. didnt stop every 5 seconds for more food or drink (for being so damn skinny that boy eats like a cow... grazingly.) fire works were amazing. i cried. ilove disneyland at christmas.
and then dave and busters for some games and A drink. which quickly turned into 5 to 6 drinks. annoying.
i tried not to let it ruin my night. but i got a head ache and wanted to leave by 11. we left at midnight which meant i didnt get home til like 1. i cried. i told him i wanted to grow old with him. that i was scared i was going to loose him. to himself.
he said nothing.
not what i wanted exactly but i dont really know what i was expecting. its just who he is.
will he ever change... ii dont know.
but its not looking bright.
so where does that leave me? i go nuts at just the thought of not being with him. i cant handle the thought that i'd never see him ever again. like cannot even cope at the thought.
i love you too much to leave you. your going to have to leave me if we arent going to grow old together. i dont want to be 50 with a dead husband. and no kids.
i told him these things. no response.
so how will i respond? no response.
ball is in your quart. if your half way to fifty and nothing changes then im walking away.
so last night we went to disneyland and it was great. we wenton my rides. didnt stop every 5 seconds for more food or drink (for being so damn skinny that boy eats like a cow... grazingly.) fire works were amazing. i cried. ilove disneyland at christmas.
and then dave and busters for some games and A drink. which quickly turned into 5 to 6 drinks. annoying.
i tried not to let it ruin my night. but i got a head ache and wanted to leave by 11. we left at midnight which meant i didnt get home til like 1. i cried. i told him i wanted to grow old with him. that i was scared i was going to loose him. to himself.
he said nothing.
not what i wanted exactly but i dont really know what i was expecting. its just who he is.
will he ever change... ii dont know.
but its not looking bright.
so where does that leave me? i go nuts at just the thought of not being with him. i cant handle the thought that i'd never see him ever again. like cannot even cope at the thought.
i love you too much to leave you. your going to have to leave me if we arent going to grow old together. i dont want to be 50 with a dead husband. and no kids.
i told him these things. no response.
so how will i respond? no response.
ball is in your quart. if your half way to fifty and nothing changes then im walking away.