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isnt that something? lol I never thought I'd be a lesbian... but hey, alana... we're just meant to be! lol... anyways...
K so lately Ive been working alot! Wow, ALOT! But aside from that... Lets see, me and rob broke up and its been very hard... but we're still gonna be close i hope, i love that boy to death and I couldnt live without him in my life in some way...
New subject.. In my free time i've been hanging out with Adam alot.. he's a cool guy, we have alot in common and he's so easy to talk to so that is a nice thing.... He's got shitty problems just like me... wow ! ( sometimes i think i'm like the only fucked up person) okay then aside from that I've been hanging out with people from work alot. Like tonite i had work, met Emily's man David... waited their table... he was awesome , (i approve emily)... And then after work i came home, changed then went over to Alons and hung out. I met Alon's friend stefanie and we talked each other's ears off...Her mom owns a Yoga place so she said she could hook me up for free for a while... I am trying to experience new things right now.. so i'm excited... ya and then we got into a long drawn out convo about existance and religion... and it was really good to hear more views and thoughts... i felt bad though bc i was at alons and i didnt talk to anyone much but stef. But she's really cool, she's taking me to this church in houston on sunday and we're gonna check it out. Its supposed to be pretty cool. It's called Unity... its like a very open minded kinda place... and it will come to you with like all religious views... not just catholic or jewish or yatta yatta... and they dont want your money and shit like that... I dunno... I've just been thinking alot lately and rethinking what i believe and the truth is i really dont know... like i know that i believe that there is more to life than just this... and i believe in a greater/higher being.... but i dunno if i believe all that is in the bible, with the lost scriptures and all that.. I'm not gonna get really deep into it on here bc i could talk for days about it... I just want to hear what other people have to say... because in every religion people are sure that they are right and that they believe in the right thing and their religion is the "true" religion... so i think i would just like to hear differnt things from differnt people... you know? like i just want to soak up some new things... not that i will buy into or take them into my faiths and all.. but i'd like to hear about buddism, athiests.. Catholics... baptists... Reincarnation... things like that... I've been reading about stuff like shockra... quabala... (sp?) lol... just everything i want to understand why people have such strong faiths in all these things....
Just right now is a very odd time in my life.. things are changning quite a bit... and i want things to change for the better... i want to be happy.. and above all be me... Not the person everyone wants me to be... I'm sick of conforming to peoples expectations and demands... I just want to take some time out... you know.. explore ... and figure out what i really want/think/believe in... stuff like that ... I dunno... I'm excited every day when i wake up.... bc i just dont know what to expect and i absolutely love it!
okay so its 5 am .. bed time.. yes... bed time... nite nite!
kristi kaye!