Something done right
Karma strikes again.... Good karma. I went shopping at hot topic today with my mother. We took those pictures int he little booths. There was a tv on top showing everyone the people in the booth. my mum didnt know so she showed her cleavage in one of the photos(for her boyfriend). It happened so fast that the last photo has my expression all wide eyed. The picture stayed for a long time and i showed her everyone saw. Some teenage girls were giggling and some 80 year old guy was staring. She pretended to make a phone call so noone would see her. This all happened at madison square mall. I got a 500 dollar check somehow so i went to hot topic for clothes. I bought two pairs of pants full of chains and straps and a sweet ass trench coat.... looks sort of like matrix meets gothic. Mum was looking at clothes too and she said she liked lots of them. I bought the clothes and she didnt object to them being black or them making me look...."satanic". She did tell someone that i wa her son, satan. it was a joking matter though. People asked me about my lip ring and did it hurt. then my coat. where did i get it. Made me feel important somehow. All and all. i actually enjoyed my time with my mother..... strange.
later i watched that garfield movie and i dunno why but endings that are like happy or sad on movies always make me swell with tears. I cant explain why for the life of me. Then i get online. Talked to tiffas mother. She told me that tiffa was staying in decatur for sure, but it was a secret and i was the only one to know.(I knew already. i had a dream about it the night before) I told her i didnt think she would be able to because i heard she thinks we are having sex. I told her my beliefs on sex i was a virgin. it was akward telling that to her but i am through lying. i am proud to be a virgin. i want my first and last time to be with the same person. and until i am completely sure who that person is then im not going to. i think i know it is tiff but we are both still young. noone knows what the future holds. Besides. when i finally do have sex it will be with someone i love so it will be so much more special then doing it just because it feels good.
Another thing about my mum i forgot to say was she said she wanted me to bring tiffa around so she could get used to her. because my mum says she is trying to get over the whole age difference thing. I cant believe it. everything is working out after all. There is still one problem with tiffa though. i promised her i wouldnt tell anyone though so i wont. LEts just says it is similar to what is wrong with me and what chris pretended to happen to him. I am trying to solve this but she hasnt decided if she wants that yet. but i have everything i need ready for the day she does decide.
btw josh. i love you too. *hugs* tell others that i am posting again. maybe eventually i will continue describing my m8s. i am still grey most of the time. i can still think completely logically but some times i block it all out with emotions. Love will do that to you. the most powerful of all emotions
later i watched that garfield movie and i dunno why but endings that are like happy or sad on movies always make me swell with tears. I cant explain why for the life of me. Then i get online. Talked to tiffas mother. She told me that tiffa was staying in decatur for sure, but it was a secret and i was the only one to know.(I knew already. i had a dream about it the night before) I told her i didnt think she would be able to because i heard she thinks we are having sex. I told her my beliefs on sex i was a virgin. it was akward telling that to her but i am through lying. i am proud to be a virgin. i want my first and last time to be with the same person. and until i am completely sure who that person is then im not going to. i think i know it is tiff but we are both still young. noone knows what the future holds. Besides. when i finally do have sex it will be with someone i love so it will be so much more special then doing it just because it feels good.
Another thing about my mum i forgot to say was she said she wanted me to bring tiffa around so she could get used to her. because my mum says she is trying to get over the whole age difference thing. I cant believe it. everything is working out after all. There is still one problem with tiffa though. i promised her i wouldnt tell anyone though so i wont. LEts just says it is similar to what is wrong with me and what chris pretended to happen to him. I am trying to solve this but she hasnt decided if she wants that yet. but i have everything i need ready for the day she does decide.
btw josh. i love you too. *hugs* tell others that i am posting again. maybe eventually i will continue describing my m8s. i am still grey most of the time. i can still think completely logically but some times i block it all out with emotions. Love will do that to you. the most powerful of all emotions