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i really just need to settle down and let life play itself out.
my mind seems to want to get everything figured out- i keep trying to smack it back down but up it cames with some new delemma or solution.
and there are questions in my heart too that refuse to be queit.there are feelings that part of me wants to back away from, an yet . . . fuck it
i am so fucking tired of this hurting - feel like i just waste more and more tears and for what? for a maybe - for a sweet posiblity - for a deep longing that i push down as hard as i can only to turn around and find it there again like a shadow.
my mind seems to want to get everything figured out- i keep trying to smack it back down but up it cames with some new delemma or solution.
and there are questions in my heart too that refuse to be queit.there are feelings that part of me wants to back away from, an yet . . . fuck it
i am so fucking tired of this hurting - feel like i just waste more and more tears and for what? for a maybe - for a sweet posiblity - for a deep longing that i push down as hard as i can only to turn around and find it there again like a shadow.