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I think the people at my school have offically gone mad... (crazy)Well live journal still won't let me comment on anything on this computer and its still pissing me off because I normally have three messengers...but now I only have one and its different and I don't like it. And the computer won't let me check my e-mail either so I have to wait until I get back home tomorrow to check it...THEN Wen. the fair starts and I want to go to suicide night so bad but I don't know if my mom will let me I hope so..I don't really want to go with Ali she's been pissing me off...just because she got knocked up (and leaves me to be the fucking godmother) she thinks everything is her fucking problem...she's told me some stuff I didn't particurally want to hear about her boyfriends brother, his girlfriend and her boyfriends bed....and what happens in there...and she was going to CONFRONT them...I don't get people sometimes why do they have to be so stupid all the time...I don't know how the hell she got knocked up in the first place...they use protection from what I hear but...GOD..and when she comes back to Refugio to go to the fair people are going to try and beat her up...they've already told me and I'm suposed to help her boyfriend protect her everynight because they want to go everynight and I'm the only friend she has here...it really makes me mad, it interfers with my plans and what I want to do..its not like my life revolves around her..AND..I have offically given up on trying to get a decent boyfriend...I might as well start going out with Steve or someone...hell I don't know..the last decent boyfriend I had...I broke his heart...and in turn he did as well....only I did it on purpose and he didn't...he doesn't even know how I feel anymore...and his new girlfriend..I know she hates me, we used to know each other and we were bitches to each other...I really miss Jon, I haven't talked to him in forever, I should have called him earlier but he's really shy on the phone and its too late to call him now...I guess theres no cure for the kind of pain you bring on yourself...it makes sence though..I guess I deserve it and I have no doubt that it won't stop anytime soon....all in all everything sucks but I'm keeping upbeat because I have no idea why..but I'm really worried, I've totally fucked up this year with my grades and I don't know if I can bring it up in the following years because I know for sure that I want to go to college and have a future as...well a writer I guess...I seem to plan things in my head and I want to put them on paper but I can't write as fast as it runs through my head...if I knew how to spell better I could just type it but sadly..I have a very limited vocabulary..and I tend to not be able to speak right lately...I just...speak too fast for my tongue and it just ugh....well enough of taking up your time...later <3333