Self doubt, party of one?
Talk about a time you experienced serious self-doubt.
It’s something that I always live with. Tends to happen when you’re born green and basically rejected by your own family. My father told the midwife to take me away. Granted, Nanny did come and she took care of me, but I was ignored by my father. Nothing I could do was good enough. My mother tried to prevent my sister from being born green, so she took milkroot. And Nessa was born crippled. And she’s resented me from the start. Doesn’t really inspire confidence in a girl now does it?
Add to my vertigris the fact that I’ve had this…this gift or curse or whatever. If I get upset, things just…happen. They move, they crash. I can’t explain it, and until I went to Shiz, I couldn’t really control it. Not that I always can now, but I’m getting better.
But my whole existence up until now has been one long exercise in self doubt.
Muse: Elphaba
Fandom: Wicked
Word Count: 156
It’s something that I always live with. Tends to happen when you’re born green and basically rejected by your own family. My father told the midwife to take me away. Granted, Nanny did come and she took care of me, but I was ignored by my father. Nothing I could do was good enough. My mother tried to prevent my sister from being born green, so she took milkroot. And Nessa was born crippled. And she’s resented me from the start. Doesn’t really inspire confidence in a girl now does it?
Add to my vertigris the fact that I’ve had this…this gift or curse or whatever. If I get upset, things just…happen. They move, they crash. I can’t explain it, and until I went to Shiz, I couldn’t really control it. Not that I always can now, but I’m getting better.
But my whole existence up until now has been one long exercise in self doubt.
Muse: Elphaba
Fandom: Wicked
Word Count: 156